𝐂𝐈𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐒 & 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

16 | sober

Now I know I'm not a saint, I've been a sinner all my life
I ain't tryin' to hide my flaws, I'd rather keep it in the light
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"And he looked at me like I was fucking stupid" Hyunjin continued to tell his story.

"And what did you do?" Chan asked.

"If our precious Jeongin wasn't there to stop me" Hyunjin gets up, lightly placing her fist to Chan's jaw "Would've hit him right there"

I snort and Changbin scoffs "Please, you've never been in a fight Hyunjin"

Hyunjin glares "Doesn't mean I don't know how to fight, I have never been given the opportunity because everyone is scared of me"

"Yeah, sure" Minho rolls his eyes "Everyone just doesn't want their gossip spilled to the rest of the school so they stay on your good side"

Hyunjin sits down again "Hey, I can ruin their life with a simple sentence"

"So it's true that you know everyone's dirty secrets"

"Yes and no," I said "He knows the secrets of those interesting" I leaned back into the couch "Isn't that right Hyunjin?"

He nods slowly, smoking before passing it to Changbin "It keeps things interesting"

Changbin reached over, offering me the blunt but I hesitated before shaking my head and he gave me a closed-lipped smile before motioning to Minho.

Minho shakes his head "Not tonight"

Hyunjin and Chan talk more about the secrets of others. I look to Minho and nudge him "You don't have to stay sober because of me"

"We made a promise to each other, I actually do take that seriously"

"I appreciate that," I tell him, "I don't really know what I would do without you Minho"

He puts on a smile "Growing soft now are we, Ji?"

I roll my eyes "Yeah but never again so soak it up" He laughs loudly before letting out a sigh "What's up?"

Minho shakes his head "Nothing important"

I sit up and turn to him "Don't be a bitch, tell me"

Minho smiles softly "I like it when you are aggressive" I give him a bored look and he says "Okay, fine. I have to go visit my dad in two weeks"

I furrow my brows "What? Why?"

"I was supposed to go this summer remember?" I nod slowly "He wants me to go, I guess he has some shit to tell me and doesn't want to do it over the phone"

I sit back again "That sounds... odd"

"Tell me about it" I look at him and he runs his fingers through his hair.

Minho and his dad were never close but the small things that kept them together quickly faded when Minho came out. I knew he blamed himself for his parent's divorce, that year was rough.

"Call me anytime and I'll pick you up in an instant"

Minho looks at me and chuckles "I won't make it an hour if that were the case" He spoke softly "But, I need to go see him" He says "I haven't visited in forever, maybe it will be a good thing?"

I nod quickly "Yeah, hopefully"

I looked into his eyes and I couldn't find myself to tell him that I was dating Maya. I haven't told anyone and I wasn't sure why.

It wasn't like I was ashamed, Maya was beautiful and kind. I wasn't ashamed of her but sort of ashamed of myself. I asked her out knowing I didn't feel as deeply about her as she did. I was taking advantage of it.

It was like for the first time I felt how much someone could like me and accept me outside of my friend group.

[Now Playing - In One Ear
by Cage The Elephant]