𝐂𝐈𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐒 & 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

22 | curiosity

All of this silence and patience
Pining and anticipation
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I tossed and turned for what felt like hours. My mind roamed with multiple things but mainly one.

I let out a loud sigh, laying on my back as I stared into the darkness. Curiosity is what roamed my head.

Ever since I've allowed these foreign feelings into my life, I've only grown more curious about them. I wouldn't admit it out loud but they lived rent-free in my mind.

I turned my head to my nightstand to where my phone was. Swallowing harshly, I grab it. Searching for something I never expected myself to grow an interest in.

I could just ask but that felt like a topic that would lead me into embarrassment. I was never against trying new things, well in most cases new drugs—what's the difference?

Sex, drugs... isn't it kind of the same? People get addicted to both and I was just addicted to the feeling of it all.

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My phone vibrates in my pocket and I furrow my brows, pulling it out.

Meet me in the restroom?

I read it over and peak to Felix who continued to do his work. I clear my throat and raise my hand "Can I go to the restroom?"

The teacher looks up and nods slowly "Make it quick"

In a hurry, I walk to the restroom and go in without hesitation. Minho leaned against the wall, looking up and meeting my gaze with a small smirk.

He bit at his bottom lip, grabbing the collar of my shirt and kissing me while walking us into a stall.

His hand fiddles with the lock and once it locked I push him up against the door, making him let out a small chuckle.

My lips move away from his mouth and to his neck, "Slow down there sweetheart" He says smugly and I ignore him, nibbling on his sensitive neck.

Hearing small noises fall from his lips made something awake in me. I wanted to hear it more often. The slight pleasure I was giving him, was enough to make him weak to the knee and lightly whispered my name.

"We have to stop" I pull away from his words.

I roll my eyes "You called me in here just to stop me" I lean closer and kiss him again and he pushes me away lightly.

"Well, no but I didn't expect you to be so... needy" He bites back a smile and I roll my eyes. He grabs my hand and pulls me closer to him again, "I never knew you could be so clingy like this—"

I furrow my brows and scoff "I'm not clingy"

My silver-haired friend nods "Sure sweetheart" He whispers and kisses me lightly, before going to my ear and biting it.

"Hey!" I push him off, "Don't do that shit"

"Why? It turns you on?"

I chuckle nervously "No" I go to lock the stall "I have to get back to class"

Minho covers the lock and looks at me, looking to want to do something as he reaches for me but retracts his arm.

Unlocking the stall and opening it with a smug look on his face "See you later Ji" He walks out of the restroom and I sigh lowly.

Getting back to class, Felix looks up and his brows raise "I thought you went to the restroom?"

I furrow my brows and sit down, "I did"

He nods "And Maya paid a visit?" He motions to my hair and my eyes widen, hurrying to fix it as I hear Felix's low chuckle. That's what Minho fought against earlier, fixing my hair as he let me walk out the restroom like this. Fucking prick.

"Whatever" I blew it off and looked out the window.

"Speaking of Maya, I heard that you two slept together" I look at him and he talks to me, ears reddening as he grew shy of the topic.

"Where did you hear that from?"

"Word gets around fast here. If she tells her friends they tell others. That leads to everyone knowing"

"Right" I look away "Yeah, we did. Not a big deal"

"Do you love her?" I look at him again "I-I just mean, I've never been in a relationship or anything like that—I just wonder what it feels like to love someone"

I swallow harshly "I'll be honest with you since you are my friend" He gives me a small smile but it looks a little sad "I like her but I don't love her, I think it's too early for that"

"But you've had a crush on her for years, shouldn't that crush just develop into more?" He asks curiously.

I smile at him "Why are you asking me all these cop questions Felix?"

His eyes widen and he shakes his head "I-I'm just curious"

Curious. Looks like I'm not the only one.

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I walk out of the school and once my eyes set on the group—particularly the silver-haired boy, a small smile rose on my face as he laughed loudly.

"Jisung, wait up" I stop and look behind me, Maya jogging up beside me and I turn to her. She smiled at me "I've been trying to catch you all day but I couldn't find you anywhere"

I scratch my neck nervously "Yeah, that's my bad. I had a test to make up in one of my classes and had to stay in for lunch—"

"But your whole group was gone at lunch"

I swallowed harshly, the truth was we spent lunch under the bleacher. I told them we needed a change of scenery but really I needed to escape Maya. Dick move, I was aware.

I looked at the group and they glanced our way, waiting up for me. I look back to Maya "Look, I've been really busy trying to keep up with school and also get right with my family"

Maya frowns as her dark brown hair blows into the wind "I just feel like we don't spend enough time anymore"

"I'm sorry," I said, feeling eyes on me but I still placed my hand on her cheek softly "I really am, I'm just trying to... try"

She bites at her lip "It's fine" She sighs and shakes her head "It's fine, I'm overreacting"

"I'll see you tomorrow?"

She nodded "Yeah" Leaning in and kissing me but for some reason, I felt like I needed to push her away—I didn't.

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