𝐂𝐈𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐒 & 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

31 | friendship

I guess we could pretend
We didn't cross a line
⁺ 𓂋 𓈒

"Please don't leave me with them again or I'll go insane," Chan says to me and I chuckle lowly.

It was Monday and I spent all weekend mustering up the courage to come back to school. I knew I couldn't hide forever, so here I was.

It was lunch and it didn't feel different from any other days. Everyone jokes around and nobody brought up that day, it was all normal.

It was normal for all of them, except for Minho and me. We didn't spare each other glances, ready to sneak away. Small touches weren't felt and he didn't sit beside me or even in front of me. He didn't shamelessly flirt with me or tease each other. I haven't even heard his voice all day, he's been quiet—keeping to himself and I knew it was to give me space. Space that my mind wanted but my body didn't.

I felt his gaze from time to time but I never looked back. The other's questioned why we weren't talking but Changbin changed the subject.

Lunch was the hardest part of the day, it was the time I spent most with Minho at school, other than when we would skip class. This was the time I looked forward to the most, being beside him but now I just wanted to leave. I forced a smile and a small conversation with  Chan who seemed the most interested in talking to me.

⁺ 𓂋 𓈒

The bell rang, I grabbed my stuff and walked past Felix who was quiet the whole class. I was thankful for it, I found it hard to be mean to the boy but I knew I wouldn't be able to be nice right now.

I walk out and immediately my body collides with another. "Fuck" I curse, helping them pick up their thing.

"I'm sorry, Jisung. I was in a hurry and didn't see you" I looked up to see Chan.

We both stand up and I hand him his notebooks "It's fine, I was in a hurry as well"

He looks around "Who were you hiding from?" He chuckles.

I scratch at my neck nervously "That obvious?"

"Yeah, I notice you've been on edge all day"

I chuckle and shake my head "I'm just really tired" I told him my favorite excuse.

Chan nods, understanding "If you ever need help, I can help you"

My mouth went dry. "Huh?"

He laughs "With schoolwork, I can help. I know you're a little behind"

"Oh" I let out a nervous laugh "Right, I'll let you know"

I felt a weight on my shoulder, looking beside me to Minho whose arm draped over my shoulder "Let him know about what?"

I shrug his arm off and swallow harshly "I was just saying—"

"Nothing" I interrupted Chan and forced a smile on him.

"Y-Yeah, I should go" He scurried off and I turned to Minho.

He looks at me softly. He was nervous, I saw it in the way he played with the rings on his finger and bit at the inside of his cheek.

"It's rude to interrupt a conversation" I cross my arms.

"Our conversation is more important" He shrugs "If you're willing to talk about it"

I stared at him and my heart was breaking just standing here with him. My body yearned for him. In such a short time his touch consumed my every being. I wasn't strong enough for this.

"I'm not" I walk past him, the hallways now clear.

"Ji, please just let me say something"

I turn around and look at his sad eyes, red and tired. He probably hasn't slept well all week. I sigh "Our friendship is everything to me, so..." I start "I'm willing to fix it, that's all"

He furrows his brows before nodding. I knew he wanted to fight against it but didn't. All I was doing was taking Nora's advice, and friendship first.

We both needed that.

[Now Playing - Kaleidoscope
by Chappell Roan]

This song is amazingly devastating.

You know what else is so amazingly devastating? The next update lmao.

I am striving to finish this book by tonight. Send help haha