𝐂𝐈𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐒 & 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

25 | loathe

Maybe i'll be stronger, maybe i'm a freak
Maybe i'll be faithful even if I was a cheat
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I turn into the hall where my locker is and my eyes spot familiar faces but particularly one.

He smiled at what Jeongin said, damn did I miss that smile.

"And there he is, the man of the week," Hyunjin says loudly as I walk up to my locker, pushing him aside as I put in my code.

"You mean the man that everyone hates of the week," I said, stuffing things into my locker.

"Hate is a strong word sweetheart" Minho leaned over to the locker beside mine, giving us a small wink and I felt the blood rush to my cheeks.

What was wrong with me? Minho always flirted, this was no different.

I clear my throat and close my locker, "Yeah but yesterday everyone started saying I was toxic to her" I furrow my brows "All I was to her was nice"

"I like toxic" Minho groans loudly, sending chills down my spine. I knew he was joking as he laughed right after.

"You look like you would like a toxic partner honestly," Jeongin says and Minho rolls his eyes.

Minho puts his arm around my shoulder as we start to walk "Toxic is one thing, clingy is another"

I furrow my brows "Says the most clingy guy I know" I say to him and he glared at me. Making the other two laugh loudly, my eyes caught sight of Maya, who looked towards me and Minho—frowning slightly.

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He kissed my neck, "Am I clingy?"

I let out a breathy chuckle, pulling him away from my neck "Very"

He pouts "I try not to be," He says, pulling my waist to meet his as he dives back into my neck, nibbling my ear "But you make it so damn hard, I love being around you Ji"

His hands were all over me, kissing my neck and he took in my cologne. Telling me how amazing I smelt and I knew it was all because we hadn't seen each other for a week.

My hands run up his shirt and he shivers against my cold hands. Pulling away and smashing his lips onto mine, tongues gliding and teeth clashing for a moment as we couldn't keep our hands to ourselves.

I was thinking about very dirty things but we were in the gym locker room so there wasn't much for us to do except make out.

My reply to his kissing slowed as Maya's face popped into my mind. Minho noticed right away, pulling away and looking at me with furrowed brows.

He let out a small chuckle "You don't seem into this right now"

I bite my bottom lip and shrug, "I am but I still feel so horrible"

"For Macie?"

I chuckled loudly "Yes, for Maya" I corrected. Minho backs away and looks around unwantedly before sitting down on the bench. I felt the air thicken around us and I knew he was irritated as he grew silent, avoiding my eyes.

"When will you just forget about her?" He mutters.

"What?"

"You keep fucking saying all these things about not caring as much as you thought you did for her but you go back to this point of feeling horrible for something that isn't your fault" His voice was harsh and he still didn't look my way.

I scoff and walk to stand in front of him"Because I'm not a fucking douchebag like you Minho?!" I shouted and the room went quiet. "I don't just sleep around and not feel bad if I hurt someone," I said more quietly.

My silver hair friend finally looked up to meet my eyes "Am I a douchebag now?"

"Yes," I said "But you are also my best fucking friend who I wish can be just that right now, like before"

I saw a hint of pain in his eyes as he knew what I meant. Things were no longer simple. I couldn't just go to him with my problems now because he would let his feelings in and give me no advice at all unless I made it aware. He put himself first instead of me.

He pulled me closer by the hem of my jeans, wrapping his hands around my body and hugging me with his head on my stomach.

"I'm jealous" He admits.

I run my fingers through his hair, "Jealous of what?"

"Every girl that you ever dated" He whispers lightly "I've always been, that's why I hate them"

"Hates a strong word" I repeat his words from earlier and he pulls away and looks at me.

"Fine, I loathe them"

I chuckle lightly "Why?" I question him.

Minho shrugs "They had you, way more than I ever could"

I furrow my brows "I've always told you more than I ever did them"

"But they had you, physically," He says and I swallow harshly. His hands run up my shirt and I let out a shaky breathe "I wanted you like that"

I pull his hand from under my shirt and lean down, kissing his lips before looking at him saying "Isn't that what you have now?"

He smirks "About goddamn time"

I roll my eyes and sit beside him. Naturally, without thinking, my head leans down onto his shoulder "What happened with your dad?"

Minho shakes his head "Had an argument which was inevitable but we made up"

I look at him "Made up?" He nods and I squint at him "What have you done to my best friend?"

Minho laughs "No, seriously it wasn't all that bad there"

"That's good, I was hoping you didn't come back with a horrible story about the shit time you had"

"They're adopting," He says and I freeze "That's what he wanted to tell me"

I frowned "Oh," I said "How do feel about it?"

Minho shrugs "Nothing, I congratulated them but I haven't told my mom about it yet"

I nod, understanding. We ended up skipping class and just talking for that hour and an half.

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Felix walks up to his seat beside mine and sits down, bags under his eyes and I frown.

"Hey, everything okay?"

He looks at me and nods slowly "Yeah, just tired" he starts pulling out his notebooks and I watch him.

"You can talk to me"

He gives me a small smile "It's just family stuff, I'll be alright"

All week Felix had been down, for the past two months his mood had changed. One day he's happy and all smiley and the next he's down and looked like he hadn't slept in days.

"You can stay at my place if you need to" I offer.

"Thanks, Jisung but I'm okay, really"

I nod and brush it off, I never used to consider Felix a friend but as the years went on we were always seated together in classes and soon enough I had considered him a friend. He was so much different from the other guys I was friends with.

He was gentle and had such a bright personality. He was just a good person.

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