𝐂𝐈𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐒 & 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

28 | little secret

My whole world just fell apart
'Cause I never felt so alone
⁺ 𓂋 𓈒

I walk into school like nothing happened. Like I didn't relapse during the weekend and like I was okay. I think I was.

I spent that next day with Minho attached to my hip, he was with me all day. When I had to go home, he was right behind me until it grew late and he had to leave, even then he stayed on the phone with me until I slept. I felt horrible, I fucked up... again.

I walked to my locker which wasn't surrounded by the others because I got a text that they were running late, but nothing surprising.

I opened my locker and I felt someone's present beside me "Is the rumor true?" I turn to the unfamiliar face.

"Whatever rumor about me you're referring to, no it's not. Now leave me the fuck alone"

The guy and his friend laugh "Dude he's not talking about you, he's talking about Minho and Felix" his friend said and I closed my locker.

Turning to them, my brows furrowed "What about them?"

"Don't act surprised, you are close friends with them. You should know that they fuck"

Usually, shock came first but right now it was anger. I grabbed the guy's collar and pushed him to the lockers, not getting far because his friend pulled me off and punched me right in the face.

I watched as his fist neared my face again until he was pulled away. Minho punches him making the boy fall to the floor, my best friend looks to me. Worry on his face "Jisung-" I walk past him and the others that I assumed just got here as well.

I walk into the restroom and let out a long sigh, looking in the mirror to see the blood drip from my lip. I turn on the water and wash my face, feeling my stomach grow sick from the thought.

Felix and Minho. I shook my head. That couldn't be true.

With the sound of the door opening, my eyes look in the mirror to see Felix walk in. I swallow harshly.

"Are you okay? I heard you got into some fight—"

"You and Minho?" I turn to him, his face draining all the color.

"W-Who told you?"

I scoff "Nobody important since you did just confirm it"

His eyes well up in tears "I know he's your best friend, I'm sorry"

I walk closer to him "Fuck whoever you want Felix, I don't give a shit" I said harshly before walking out of the restroom.

I didn't get far, almost bumping into the others "Jisung what happened?" Minho asks before his eyes fell on a crying Felix behind me, walking out of the restroom. Minho looks back to me "Jisung" He let out lowly, like he had just been caught.

I give him a forced smile "Go comfort your little secret Minho" I said sharply to him and the others gasp in shock that Felix was the boy he had been keeping a secret.

"Jisung, I'm sorry"

I scoffed "Just leave me alone," I said, stepping away and shaking my head. Tears were in my eyes as my sight caught a sad-looking Maya in the distance, looking at me. "Everyone leave me alone" I mutter before turning around and walking away. Hugging my body as I tried not to just cry.

I wanted to cry and never stop. Felix was my friend, Minho knew that. Minho knew I cared about Felix, almost like a brother that I needed to help.

I was a fucking fool to believe Felix wanted to be my friend, he just wanted to be closer to Minho and he got him.

I left school, driving with tears in my eyes. I had to stop as my vision blurred. "Fuck!" I scream, hitting the wheel repeatedly. My felt sick to my stomach and I get out of the car, throwing up as my head pounded. The thought made me sick.

I thought about it repeatedly. I hated Felix without even knowing I hated him. I was jealous of him unknowingly and I allowed him into my life. My friend group. I fucking told him he could stay with me because he said he had family problems but in reality, he was just getting fucked by my best friend.

I fell to my knees and I cried, my hand on my heart and I cried loudly. "Please" I whisper "Make it stop" I look up at the sky "Please, I hate it already"

I shake my head "He fucking promise me" I screamed "He promised" I wiped my tears away harshly.

"He lied"

[Now Playing - Never Felt So
Alone by Labrinth]

To those who kept commenting that it was Felix, you made me smile every time because goddamn I put so much hints that if I gave more it would just be put in plain sight lmao.

I will admit it, I cried writing this.

Also do I keep these updates coming as much as I can because i'm in such a writing mood right now.

Or would that be overwhelming?