Scared To Love You Again

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Damian

I've spent a whole year and a couple months of my life miserably without this woman. Now that I have her in my presence, I'm not about to let her go. At first I wasn't gonna come to Italy, but when Domenico asked me to be his best man, I couldn't refuse. I know I should've probably kept my distance from Leila, but I can't help the way I feel. This girl is my rock. She's the reason why I keep on breathing. When I laid eyes on her while we were on the terrace, it brought back all the good old memories we had together. Before all that bullshit transpired.

"Damian." She moaned. I missed her sweet sounds as she called out to me. I have her back pinned against the wall, with her hand interlocked over her head. I pressed my large body into hers, but she pulls away from our long lasting endearment. "Damian. Damian, stop." I release her and she walks away from me. "I- I can't do this." She tries to calm her heated breathing as I do the same.

"Fuck." I quietly cursed to myself. I'm fuckin' up again. I rubbed the back of my head like a fool. "Leila, I'm so sorry. I- I don't know what I was thinking."

"I thought you had a family back home."

I shook my head. "You're my family, baby. That's why I've been meaning to talk to you."

"Last time you said something like that you dropped a big ass bomb on me. What? Is there another baby? She had twins or something? Look, I don't wanna hea-."

"Leila! Just... let me explain. Okay?"

She folds her arms and allows me to continue.

Flashback

Several months back...

I sat and watched as my brothers cradled Mateo in awe. "Man he's so adorable." Romeo praised.

"Y'all mind watching him for a couple hours? I need to go by the club real quick. I left a few things in my office."

"Yeah. No problem, Dame. We got him. He's in good hands." Apollo reassured happily. When he said that, Mateo smiled toothlessly. Another thought occurred to me.

"Thanks, I'll see y'all in a bit." I kissed Mateo on his head and went out the door.

I sped frantically to her house. When I pulled up she was already sitting outside picking flowers from her garden. Oh, now she wants to be all sunshine and rainbows. "We need to talk."

She scoffed. "Now you want to talk? Why don't you go talk to your bi-."

"Be careful what comes out your mouth, Naomi." I threatened.

She sucked her teeth and walks into the house. "What do you want, Damian?"

"Is he mine, Naomi?" I asked straight to the point.

"Mateo?" She laughs nervously. "Why would you ask such a question like that?"

I stared dead into her soul.

"Of course he's yours. I can't believe you would even have the audacity to come up here and accuse me of-."

"Naomi!" I take a second to breathe. "I'm gonna ask you again. I won't hesitate to reach down and snatch your esophagus from your throat. Is he?"

She ignores my question and gulps heavily.

"IS HE MINE!?!" I snapped.

.......

The following night, I knocked on the door until he answered. Then in one clean move, I knocked my brother on his ass.

"Dame, wait!" He puts his hand up to keep me from dragging my fist into his face again. His lip is leaking now.