Alone At Last (UNEDITED)

Chapter 8: The Clock that Keeps Ticking

Days began to pass, which soon turned into weeks, which I soon lost track of. 

"How long have I been here?" I pondered staring at the grandfather clock that kept ticking. 

Iv tried every activity I could think of. 

I went to the movies- I went ice skating- I went on endless amounts of roller coasters at amusement parks- I went to the beach and got ice cream - I did more joyriding- went hiking (which was not very fun) - I played video games and did puzzles - I even cleaned the house as I was so bored. There was nothing left to do. All the time when I did these activities I just thought about Randy and Danny on how they were doing and if they were ok. 

Tired and lonely I looked in Dannys room wishing he was there sitting at his desk, doing his cute little drawings like he always did. I walked over to his desk and saw his crayons still sprawled out everywhere. Paper littered his desk some blank and others with pictures. 

I picked one up and my eyes watered as it was a picture of me and him looking at the stars. 

I picked up another drawing again being of me and him at the park with me pushing him on the swing, our faces both filled with joy. 

My heart began to ache as I realized a majority of the pictures were me and him together, always together. 

As tears began to well up in my eyes I clutched all the pictures Danny drew close to my heart. 

How could I be so selfish to leave him there alone with mum? 

What if he was in danger? I wouldn't be there to help him. 

Sadness tugged on my heart as guilt flooded my veins. I quickly receded back to my room depressed and lonely. As I closed the door to my room my black slid down the wall as I buried my face in my hands. I no longer held my tears back as they began to steam down my face. 

"I wish I could go home and see Danny and Randy" I whispered to myself.

"I wish I could go home" I whispered louder.

"I wish I could just go home" I yelled now furious that I would never be able to see my family again. Anger consumed me as I tore apart my desk and ripped my room apart. Destroying everything I saw in my line of sight anger taking control of my actions. 

My eyes caught sight of the drawer on the bottom of my desk that I did not touch and I have not touched for years. Now catching sight of the drawer I decided it was time I read the letter from Noah. His last words.

"Dear Luke, 

        I always thought letters were stupid but now here I am writing one. Ha thats ironic. Life is hard and Iv been struggling with it for a long time now and I know you have too. Im sorry I had to do this I just couldn't handle it... I was never as strong and brave as you. I hope you can forgive me one day and can live your life to the fullest cause although life is hard it is also great and happy. I always felt happy when I was with you because you were and will always be my best friend. I want you to know that. Life is a challenge but let's be honest everything is. People will always struggle with life and their feelings and relationships but thats just a part of it. If you don't struggle then you don't live and whats the point of living a life you're not living? 

        Life with you was never not living. I remember all the happy times we had together when were younger and older. Playing at the park after school, breaking rules that we know will get us in trouble but we do it anyway, and just spending time together talking about the years yet to come. You were always so happy talking about your life and where it will lead, and I know you will succeed and do great things. Im sorry I couldn't be there to to help you achieve them but I will always be with you in your heart and I will always be watching you from up above gilding you. I always knew you were different and I always knew that I would follow you where ever you went because thats what friends do.

        If I could do this all over again I would and I wouldn't change a thing because getting to know and be with you was the greatest thing of my life. You have this light that will never go out and I hope you share it with more people because you never could know how much that light helped people. My hope for you is that when you're looking back years from now you'll be able to say the same. The futures in your hands now Luke, and I know you will find a way to do whats right. You always have. Take care of Danny for me you never know how much you'll miss him until he's gone, and take care of yourself. You deserve to be happy. 

Thank you for being my friend.

Goodbye mate, 

Noah"

I read the letter about 100 times over each time making me feel more and more guilty. The tears began to pour as I sat my back against the wall putting my head in my hands. 

"Why-y did I have to be so stupid-d and make that stupid wish?" I cried to myself "God I'm such an idiot-t"

"Your not an idiot" A soft voice responded...

I lifted my head up from my hands surprised,

and with that my eyes locked eyes with the boy in white...