Destiny

1.I am in love

Bright

Baby, stay in the waiting room win say and kiss my cheek.  He behave weird tonight. What wrong win, i ask my boyfriend. I dont know, but i felt uncomfortable win said. Like always he send me to my event if he can. Today, he have his own event but he still send me here. Its not necessary, but i dont want to make him sad or angry, so i just follow his plan. Dont worry, i will be okay i said and hug him. Promise, he ask me. I nod and kiss his shoulder.  Take care baby he said and leave me. I can see how he ask and warn my team to be carefull and protect me. He really warm my heart. I dont think anyone can treat me better than win. Its been 3 years, he still love and respect me like before. We hide our relation from the world, but we cant hide our emotion. All our fans around the world cant stop being clown and make their own story. But honestly, i dont blame them. Its because both of us cant hide our love and emotion. We try hard but i guess it shows. All my close friend and team know our love story and happily support us. We become their muse and everyone expecting good news from us.  We just wait for our contract end. We already plan everything. Have i told you how happy i am now. I am willing to do anything for my lover. I love him so much. I will die if he leave me. I need him to live now.
The only reason i dont loudly annouce our love is, we still dont have win family blessing. I guess they already know our relation because their behavior toward me changed. I really dont know what to do. Win is the heir of his prestige family. It matter of time for him to be the family head. Its also mean he need to have his own son for their family lineage. This is the only thing i care and make me not giving myself fully to him. I love him so much but i need to he careful because of this. I dont want to be someone who only can be his secret lover. I am really scare. I know win really love me but this is something beyond our control. I sometime think that, we are not mean to each other. I always regret how i let this feeling grow bigger. Its my fault because i know it from the start that we are imposible to be together. I cant blame anyone but love. Win promise everthing will be fine. So i will trust him and wait.

Dont worry, come soon i said when win call me at after party. I am a bit tired but i cant avoid this. I make sure i dont drink if i am alone. Win make sure i promise that and i felt so much love. Like now , i only have my juice and wait for win. I need to talk with him. I think he is hiding something from me. He is worry and look tired these day.
Phi, i need to use restroom i said to my manager. Lets go she said. I know she wont allow me walk alone. Beside she scare of metawin who can be really scary if he need to. That cute bunny is the sweetest but also the scariest.
We have a small talk while walking to the rest room. Phi, i can go alone i said. No, your bunny will kill me she said. Yeah that bunny i said and both of us laugh happily.
What are you doing, i yell when suddenly a group of people come and pull me. My manager quickly hold me and try to protect me. Phi, i call her when she was push to the wall. I can see her forhead bleeding. I try to fight but i cant fight with all of them. Bright, my manager shout when they forcefully drag me. My manager again push to the floor when he try to hold me. Help me phi, i shout scarely. What is going on i ask myself. Who dare to touch me.

I slowly open my eyes. Its only dream i said. Luckily its only dream i said again. I try to get up but i cant move. I felt hurt everywhere. I try to focus and look around. Where am i, this is not my room. I try my best but i really cant move. Now i felt scare and panic. I look around and see my love who now sit queitly at the sofa.  Win, i call him softly. I dont even have energy to call him. But my love like always very attentive to me and he quickly run to me. I can see his red eyes. Are you okay, he ask me. I nod and try to smile. What happen, i ask him. Nothing, rest first he said and kiss my nose. He hold my hand and sit close to me. He try to hold his tears. What wrong honey, i ask him. I am sorry he said and hug me tight. I am sorry he said none stop. Dont worry, everything will be alright he said firmly and hug me again.  I nod and hug him back. After that i fall asleep again. I heard some one cry but i really tired and hurt. I dont scare anymore because my love hold me tight. Nothing can hurt me if i am with him.

01.10.23