Destiny

18.I wont be nice

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He look worry and tension since at our home. I try to tease him, to help him relax and release his tension.
You look ugly now, win will regret that he love you before i said and he look at me angrily. I felt sorry for teasing him. But he look so adorable now. Are you okay now, i finally ask him gently. I tidy up his hair and look into his eyes, giving all the support he need. He eyes look glittering but look a lot better now. When I smile to him, he finally smile. That my kitten i said soflly. He nod and hold my hand tightly. He always refuse if i want to hold his hand in public. But today he really nervouse and scare. Somehow I felt proud that I can be with him and become his strenght now. Lets go, I said.

I hold my chair tightly when he suddenly stand up and hug metawin. I dont dare to look at his expression. I try my best to keep calm. I dont know how to explain when i see him slowly push metawin who hug him tight. When he turn and smile to me, i felt like dying with all happiness. He slowly sit beside me and quickly hold my hand under the table. After our greeting, i slowly whisper to him. I will wait for you outside. He look into my eyes and desprately beg for me to stay. But i really cant. I know metawin need space and have a lot to talk with him alone. It will be really ackward for us if i stay here. Phi, he call me. But i just pat his hand and leave. Now i am regreting my decision. I felt restless. What will i do if he agree to go back to metawin. I am too confident. I should not leave him. I cant help but to worry.

I quickly open my arms and hug my husband when he is crying and  run to me. Phi, i am a bad guy, win will hate me, he cry sadly. I cant say a word. I just hug him. Its okay, i said and slowly pat his bad. He still cry non stop. I really need to comfort and cheer him up. Now we are macth made by heaven, i said. With teary eyes he look at me. Because both of us are bad guy now ,i said teasing him. Phi, he said angrily and hug me back. I let him calm down and after a while when he seems relax i push his body slowly and look into his eyes. Are you still hungry, i ask my husband. From far i can see he eat politely not like his usual self. No,he said. Let go home, i said. Am i bad guy phi, he ask me again refuse to move. Yup, you are bad guy now, i reply to him. He then glare at me and walk as fast as he could leaving me. I only can laugh on his behaviour. Even my man also smile looking at his attitude. I walk slowly and see how my man running to him. Only a few people stay with me. I am happy how he slowly getting respect and love from my people. He just too nice to be hate. We are force to love him. When he arrive at our car, he stand beside the door and wait for me. He glare at me and look at the car door. Again i laugh and open the door for him.
During our way home, he sleep soundly in my arms. I know he is sad and worry. Knowing him this all years, i know he try to be mean  to push metawin out of his life. To force him move on. Metawin really a big part in his life, maybe something that i can't replace forever. You are doing great baby, i said and kiss his head.

Where is your master, i yell as loud as i could. I can see how my helper shaking with fear. Its rare for me to yell and shouting. But when i receive a call from my butler, i cant help but to become angry. In your room master , my butler said slowly. I run to our room and open the door roughly. Phi, he look suprise quickly hide his hand. What are you doing here, he ask me. Show me, i said coldly. What, he ask me try to play dumb. Show me, i yell and he look at me with his wide eyes. We have rules, no yelling, he said bravely. Bright Sumettikul, i said slowly. He quickly show me his burn hand. He know i am at my limit. I hold his hand gently. What are you doing, i ask him. Dont blame our helper, i ask them to let me cook. And, i interupt . And i burn my hand he said and then smile. Are you seriously smile right now, i ask him. I look at him, release his hand and turn to leave. Phi, he quickly hug me. I am sorry, its an accident he said. And its normal thing and can happen to anyone, he said again. It can happen to anyone, but not you, i said coldly. Please phi, he try to comfort me. Dont be unreasonable, I wont talk to you if you shout at our helper, he said try to threat me. I turn to him and coldly said. You can try me, i said and leave him. I walk to my helper who now line up and shaking. Before i start scolding, i hear my husband scream and i quickly run to him. Its hurt, he said with teary eyes. Call the doctor ,i yell. After being treated he adorablely sit on my laps. Keep whining and what not. I know he try to safe his helper. Phi, he said sadly when i put him down. Lets go, you need to eat ,i said. He quickly nod and follow me from behind. I carefully feed him. When i see how my helper line up like usual, i coldly said. All of you can refuse your master if he want to cook again. Yes master ,all of them reply happily at the same time. Phi, he call and glare at me. We have 7 star chef and you dont even know how to cook, what make you so confident to replace him, i ask him blantly. Phi, he now yell at me. No yelling, i said . He now grab his spoon and eat angrily. Who call you, he ask me and glare at  his helpers. I look at him and flick his head. Enough, just eat, i said. Even he dont know who report the accident to me, he choose to glare at everyone. I wont be nice after this he said loud and clear try to intimidate his helpers. They try hard to hold their laugh. I know if i am not around, my helper will laugh like crazy. He really can make people love him and willing to protect him.

09.10.23