Destiny

14.You should rest

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Can we choose other way, i ask phi bible.
It will be late and win wont believe it, phi bible said. He wont move on as long as you still single, phi bible said slowly. You know why i choose a guy that night, he ask me. I look at him hint that i dont know. Because i dont want to be trap with a heir , phi bible explain. But it not fair to win, i said . Trust me, he have his way to run from this , but he choose not to phi bible said again. I dont want to force you, but i am willing to help you, help metawin move on he said casually. Its painful for me to see him act like crazy guy, phi bible said. Win not crazy, i yell at him. Do you forget about rules i told you before, phi bible ask me a bit cold. No, i said quickly. You cant call win crazy, i will not allow it, i said calmly this time. I am sorry, phi bible said and touch my cheeks. Dont touch me, i said like always.

After a long thought and consideration, i agree with phi bible suggestion. I will marry to him on paper only. I know he will listen to me like this two years. He always keep his promise and do everything i want. So i am confident that i can live like usual after this. I just need to sign the form and legalized our marriage. I know win will check on this.
I get the hint from phi bible, maybe the girl who always with win is pregnant. I cant blame her and win. I am hurt , but what can i do. I cant give win what his family want and i dont want to be someone who break other relation. I can live without him for this 2 years, so i believe i can live as phi bible husband for a while. After metawin move on, i will ask for divorce. Again i believe phi bible will fulfill my wish. Some how i felt grateful for phi bible because he always with me during my darkest moment. It somehow make my heart less hurt and i can live easily. I continue my life like usual but being guide by phi bible.

I felt weird. Since i signed my marriage registration and become his husband, phi bible look a bit differ. I plan to ask him to send me back to farm house. I love it there. I felt little uncomfortable when i remember how he said that we need to say good bye to my friends at farm. But he is realy busy before our marriage , i cant even talk to him about my plan yet.

He casually hold my waist and make sure i stay close to him. I nearly yell when he kiss me in front of officers and his friend. I dont expect he will kiss me in front of stranger. Again i was shocked when he bring me to his villa. What is he plan to do. Before i ask he casually carry me to a bedroom. I am scare and i yell at him. But he is not listening. He really different phi bible i know. He never not listen to me. I cant help but to cry when he really do me. I only cry and moaning mess , confuse between pain and pleasure. I am thankful he not act like monster that day. But even he try to be gentle, i really dont prepare and not expecting this. I never imagine something like this. I must be stupid when i cant even fight him. I keep asking him to stop and told him how he not listen to me, but like a deaf he just smile and kiss me. After being toss,pull and what not, he finally stop and hug me gently. He kiss me like i am the most precious thing. You are bad phi, I said and cry. I know baby, I am sorry he said but still hugging me. After he clean us, i cant look at him and refuse to talk with him. How could he make me do all the shameless thing. I will not forgive him. He dont even let me wear cloth before feeding me.

Are you okay kitten he ask me the next morning. Leave me alone, you said you wont force me, i said and look into his eyes. I am ready to confront my husband. Like talking to wall he casually lift me and make me sit on his lap. Why are you lying, i ask him sadly. No, i am not. I dont force you into this marriage, you are willing to marry me, he said calmly. I am willing to marry but i dont want to live with you ,i said. I need to make him understand. I know he is still phi bible 2 years ago. He just confuse. I want to go back to farm house, you can live like usual. No need to worry about me, we can live like before. I wont be your burden and i wont disturb you, i said clearly try to make him understand. He just look at me and did not response. He must be sorry for being intimate last night. What should we do baby, i already do you. You should tell me before this, he said and look regret. Dont worry, i will forgive you, just dont do it again, i said sincerely. He look at me dearly and suddenly he kiss me hard. Phi, i yell at him. I am sorry baby, its too late. You should tell me before marriage, he said. You should discuss something important like this, he said again. But you always not around near the wedding and you always listen to me before, i said nervously. I felt a bit worried. And we still discuss it now, i add. No we cant, it should be discuss before marriage. Its too late now. I already decide to be your real husband and you also need to be my real husband he said calmly. But i dont want, i finally yell again. Baby, i dont like this yelling attitude he said a bit cold. But you are not listen to me, i said desprately. Look, now you should listen to me, he said a bit firm and clear. Before, i dont have any right on you , so i have to listen to all your request, but now you are my husband and i have every right upon you, he said firmly. I look at him and try to find the truth. He is not joking. No you cant, i said again loudly try to protest. Are you feeling better here baby, he ask me while grabbing my back. I look at him fearly. No, i am still hurt , i reply quickly. So, you should behave he said and peck my lips. I cant believe this. I hate you, i said but lay on his firm chest. He did not reply but coaxing me with his hug. You should rest he said gently again.

07.10.23