A Fathers Love ⭐️

Chapter 33

I wasn't sure if it was day or night when I finally woke up, I just knew I was alone in the room. I looked and saw clothes folded on the dresser and I sighed getting up. I took another shower because no matter how clean I was I still felt like that dingy basement.

I walked out of the bathroom after my shower and got dressed in the clothes I was give. Noticing they were my own, so someone got me clothes. I brushed out my hair and put on the little bit of make-up that was also beside the clothes. I finished getting ready, I took one last look at myself and walked out of the bedroom.

I heard everyone hanging out in the club house, when I walked out the chatter died down as everyone saw me.

"Hey..." I said breaking the silent tension I could feel building up.

"You want some coffee?" Gemma asked and I nodded.

"Yes please." I said. She poured me a cup and handed it to me. I looked around at everyone and sighed. "Okay so should we just get all of this over with before we get on with that day? I mean the stares alone are unsettling."

"I think you and I need to talk." Clay said and I half nodded as we walked into the board room, but I noticed no one else came walking in. "Sit." He said and pulled a chair out and I sat down. He sat at the head of the table.

"Clay...I'm sorry -..." I started to said and he held up his hand.

"I know why you did why you did. I don't agree with it, and I don't think Jax or Tig are happy about it so I can't promise you how they are going to act but right now I just want to talk to you about what's going to happen now." Clay said.

"Happen now?" I asked scared.

"Jules, you put yourself in danger. You seem to always want to insert yourself into club business." Clay said.

"Club business?! This was more personal for me!" I yelled.

"And we let you get involved to a certain extent, but you took it too far! You went off the plan."

"What plan?! The plan you had wasn't going to work! He wasn't going to go for it Rane was smart, Rane would have seen through the original plan a mile away. Did I know he would take me? No of course! I thought I could talk to him."

"Talk to him?! Damnit Jules, this isn't the girl scouts!" Clay yelled.

"I never said it was! I knew Rane. Maybe not how you all did but I did! I thought he would listen to me, he beat the shit out of me before, he owed me that. I thought I could get him to back off. I was wrong and I own that shit." I said trying to remain calm.

"You just need to learn your place. You work for us, that's it. You have shown you more common decency than we would anyone else in this situation. If you were anyone else -..." Clay started to say.

"If I was anyone else, I would be dead? Telling everyone I just left, and you had no clue where I went?" I questioned which I could tell by the look on his face shocked the hell out of him that I was bold enough to say it.

"In a matter of speaking..." Clay said, and I just half nodded.

"Why don't I just do you one better and actually leave? I'll leave town, I'll leave California all together..." I said and Clay just shrugged.

"Do what you need to do." Clay said.

"We done here?" I asked.

"Yeah." Clay said and I pushed away from the table. I walked out of the meeting room. Everyone was silent so they heard, I knew they did. Jax and Tig included.

"When you got me, did you find my car?" I asked as a general consensus to everyone. Tig stepped forward and tossed me my keys.

"Thanks." I said and went to walk outside.

"Are you leaving for good?" Tig asked and I stopped walking. I turned and looked at the whole club.

"I think it would be better for everyone if I did." I said and continued to walk out. Once I got in my car, I placed the keys on the ignition but didn't start the car up. I placed my head on the steering wheel and just took a couple deep breaths. This is not what I wanted but I was being told basically this wasn't for me. Maybe Clay was right, I haven't fit in since I was brought into this life.

I lifted my head to see everyone looking at me from the opening to the clubhouse. I finally started the car and drove off. It didn't surprise me when I instantly had a car following me with a bike behind it. I drove to Tig's house where my stuff was, I just wanted to pack up. As I went to close the front door it was pushed open, and I watched Gemma walk in behind me. I sighed and kept walking to my room.

"Can I help you with something?" I asked.

"So, you're really gonna leave, just like that?" Gemma asked. I walked into my room and grabbed my suitcase from the closet.

"Yeah, I am. It was made to me that I clearly need to learn my place, so I don't "go missing" like others. I'm starting to hate being told that and it would better if I just left." I said.

"Beter for who Jules?! You? Tig?...Jax?" Gemma asked and I turned to look at her.

"Jax and I...My dad and I -..." I stuttered through. "Listen it would just better for everyone." I said and she sighed.

"No one else but Clay wants you gone if you must know the truth. We all love you and god knows if you leave you are letting Clay win."

"CLAY ALWAYS WINS!" I yelled. "You really think I will ever be accepted by Clay if I stayed?! You think Jax will ever accept me as his Old Lady if Clay doesn't like me? It always comes down to Clay and what Clay says." I said. I felt exhausted and just sat on the edge of the bed. Gemma came and sat beside me.

"One thing you need to learn. Don't fucking listen to Clay."

"But he's..."

"President of the club, not God. Not matter what he likes to think." Gemma said with a smirk. "Jackson is a grown man and will make his own decisions on what he wants. Right now, his decision is to be with you. You just have to decide if you want to be with him. Being with him involves being a part of the club." Gemma said and I dropped my head and closed my eyes.

"I do still love him...I just don't know what I can do about the club always being involved." I admitted.

"You love the man. You learn to love the club. If you can do that, there's nothing you can't handle." Gemma said placing her hand over mine in my lap. "So, what are you going to do?" Gemma asked after a few minutes of silence.