I'm really sorry to the few people that actually read this. it's been a really long time since I've last updated. Probably because I haven't been having the greatest time lately. But I'm updating now finally. I really haven't been feeling very good lately, no particular reason that I can think of, but just stressed out with school and cutting and missing my grandma. I really want to get out of my house but I have no place to go since I'm not even employed right now.. Anyways ... I have had quite a few slip ups lately with my self harm and nearly relapsed with other
stuff too ... So yeah... Life isn't being very kind to me right now and It feels like I'm stuck in a rut far over my head and sometimes it seems like I'll never escape this depression. I'm fighting so hard but I'm so damn tired. tomorrow I'm going to see my shrink again in hopes of getting my ADD and my OCD dealt with and also potentially changing my antidepressant. My parents have still been pushing me a lot to get off my Meds and I'd like to be off of them. But they help me to not be suicidal anymore. so I can't really get off them right now. I don't really have anything to say right now to motivate anyone since I just feel like shit. But I guess if you feel like shit too then you're not alone. I'll try and write some more soon. keep fighting everyone!
