It's been over a month since the last time I cut. It's taking a lot out of me to fight the urge constantly. I feel as though I am losing grip on my life and my power over self harm. I haven't gone this long without it for years... Many times a day I feel as though I will fall back but I keep on fighting because of my amazingly supportive boyfriend. I really don't know how I'm doing it and I've come so damn close to falling back so many times. Right now I'm having really bad urges... But I'm still fighting it. I'm just hoping for the best. We will see what happens.
