It's been 2 years as of tomorrow since my grandmother passed away... I feel so lost and still cannot find a way to accept that she's gone. The world is shit. I still love her so much... I miss her... And today I found out my grandpa who has cancer is in the hospital not responding to antibiotics... My grandpa is dying... I can't take this anymore... I feel as though this world is nothing but pain sometimes... Even when I go to therapy to try and get better I just end up too uncomfortable and not wanting to go back... I can't deal with life right now... It seems as though life itself is the most terrifying thing in existence. Life is far more terrifying than death... But death is not my path. I refuse to give in to the easy way out. I must fight... We all must fight...
