I know it's been quite a while since I've updated anything on here. I've been having kind of a hard time lately with life, school, just everything really. I'm feeling a bit better now since my boyfriend and I sorted some issues recently.
Anyways, I've self harmed a handful of times within the past few weeks. I'm still fighting though. It's hard when all the progress goes down the drain and you have to start from square one. I went on a basketball tournament last weekend and knew I couldn't cut... my jersey is a tanktop and I have to wear shorts. I was really struggling with it quite a bit because I also had no personal space and my anxiety was taking over. to make it worse I wasn't able to text or call my boyfriend for 5 days since I was in a different country. But I got through it. I did self harm a couple times within those 5 days but thankfully it was only a few cuts each time rather than what I used to do.
I'm so happy to be back into playing basketball after my accident last year. Being able to play really helped me when I was unable to cut.
Anyways I have a new therapist now after not seeing one for quite a few months. I've only seen this guy once so far. But he is pretty chill. I don't mind talking to him and we can joke around a little bit about everything too so it's not too terribly awkward. I have to go back in about a week and hopefully it goes well. I'm right in the middle of exam week so I'm freaking out about that a little. I failed my final exam in chemistry and tomorrow morning I have to write my diploma in chemistry. I have to get at least 60% on my diploma to pass the class but I'm trying not to freak out.
Anyways the good things are that I get to be back with my amazing boyfriend who makes everything better, I can play basketball, tomorrow is my last exam, and pretty soon hopefully I can start searching for a job.
Anyways I know that hardly anyone reads this, but that's okay. to those who will see this I hope that everything is going good for you and life is enjoyable. Have a great day everyone :)
