Certainly Not

10.

Jennie

I was sweating so hard when I heard Lisa. Is she declining my offer? I looked at her waiting for the word she wanted to blurt. Remember self, let her go if she doesn't want- my thoughts were interrupted when she cleared her throat. She scratched her brow. Is she nervous?

"But, Jennie. I am not good at this. I, I never had experience being with someone intimately, what if, what if I fuck it up?" She nervously stated. 

Is she for real? Is this the only agony she has. "Oh, sweetheart. I am too. I mean, I may have an ex-girlfriend before but it's my first time to initiate the courtship and all. I am new to this my love, because all I want for us is a pure relationship. I don't want us to rush in everything. What I want is for you to make sure that you love me, not because I've been courting you for too long. If you get what I mean. So, Lisa, do you want this? I mean, do you want me to court you?" She looked at me intently. I'm waiting for her answer. I saw her lips, she tightly closed it and stared at me. "No, I don't want you to court me Jennie."

My heart is squeezed so hard. I felt the pain. I think I lost all the oxygen from my body. She continues,

"I don't want you to court m-" I cut her. It's too much for me. "I know, I heard it. I, I am sorry for bringing you here or what. I will resp-" when I looked at her, her arms crossed.

"Can you please listen to me first, before you conclude anything?". I sadly nodded at her. "Alright. You may proceed."

"Thank you. I'm sorry because the way I deliver it, is wrong, but I did not mean that way. What I meant is, courting will only waste our time. For the short time period that we were together, I already see you Jennie. I know how respectful you are to me, even after we have done it. I don't want you to court me anymore, I am ready to be yours, baby." What?! She what now?!

"Did you mean? Babe, are you serious? Lisa, don't play with my feelings. Come on!" She chuckled at me only. She then stood up and leaned her face closer to mine. "I'm yours now, Jennie. And you, mine only. I'm a jealous person, so don't break my heart or doubt you, o-" I didn't let her finish and grab her nape and kiss her.

We kissed, it's so magical. I pull her to me so she can sit on my lap. We kissed until we were out of breath. We stare at each other and study our faces. My girlfriend is so gorgeous. I touched her forehead with mine, and whispered to her, "I'm all yours, I'm all yours babe." She nodded. I closed my eyes to savor the moment.

And it's so magical. It's very timely because the cafe was scheduled to have a fireworks display. We watched the fireworks, she still sat on my lap, and I hugged her from behind where my chin is on her shoulder. I kiss it and whisper to her again. "I love you, Lisa."

She faced me. "I love you too, Jennie. Thank you for coming into my life." I can see that she's about to cry. I kiss her eyes. "No babe, thank you, for coming into my life." She smiled, gave me a peck then leaned to me more. I hug her tightly.

The couple decided to stay a little longer to celebrate their first day as a couple. After a couple of minutes, they decided to go home. But before they enter the car, Lisa tug the hem of Jennie's dress.

"Would you like to visit my place and stay for the night?" Lisa asked me. I stared at her and I saw how her pupils dilated.

"I would love to."