Never Meant to (Book one of series)

| Remember Who You Are |

Ace

He unlocked the door to the condo. Once he stepped inside, he saw all of Troubles stuffed packed up. "Trouble,"

Trouble stood a few feet away. "I asked you; I asked you if I would be enough for you and you said yes."

"You were enough, it was never you I just..."

"You what Ace? Trust me, you can't hurt me no more than you already have." He paced the floor. "Zhi hurt you and I was here picking up the pieces. This nigga is allowed to come and go outta your life as he pleases, while I'm here every day fighting to be in it. Just hoping one day you would see as someone worth your love..."

"Trouble stop. Who am I for you to measure your self-worth? Trouble you are a way better nigga than me. I don't come close."

"I wanted to be who you wanted, and I just never could." Trouble closed his eyes and turned trying to hide his face.

"Trouble I'm not good, I know you wanted to believe there was something different and worth holding on to with me, but there isn't." Ace felt like shit.

"Why the fuck did you say yes to marrying me? Why?!!!" He took of his ring and threw it. "You were never serious; this shit is a game to you."

"When I said yes, I meant it. I could see see marriage and a family with you, but"

"Finish your damn sentence but what?" Trouble said angry.

"But I just love Zhi, I just do." It felt good to finally say it to Trouble. Even if hi destroyed him.

"It was never a question of your love for him, it was your loyalty to me. You never gave a fuck about messing that up." He wiped his eyes. "I did everything I thought I was supposed to, and still I come up short every time." He shook his head. "I was always going to be competing with Zhi, always coming second to him."

"I am sorry,"

"A sorry ass person who wasted years of my life." He put his hand to his chest. "This shit hurts."

Ace walked closer to him but Trouble pushed him. "A broken person can't fix a broken heart." He sniffed. "How could I expect possession to a heart that you never even owned, it belonged to him all along." More tears ran down his face. "That's me though, always falling for the wrong niggas and the part I hate most, is that Imma always love you Ace." He finally looked at him. "I wanted this more than I wanted to breathe, you make me so happy. Since the first time I saw you, you did something to me."

"You made me happy too, you showed me the correct way a person should love you. This was the best relationship I've ever had."

"Then why did you do everything in your power to ruin it? Is it because that's what you were used to happening with him?" Trouble seemed like he legitimately wanted to understand.

Ace thought long and hard but "Honestly I don't know,"

"I offered assurance, security, unconditional love, happiness all on a silver platter, but nothing was good enough."

"It was, I'm just not the right person as bad as we both wanted me to be. I'm not him."

"Why did y'all have to hurt and mislead so many people instead of just being together?"

"We shouldn't have. We should have been upfront with everyone, but I was dealing with him when we met. You didn't care. I don't believe you knew just how drawn to one we were. Our souls are linked in, we just can't deny it anymore."

"Okay, well I'm done with this, you and him. I'm leaving and. I hope you made the right choice." He turned to start grabbing his things.

"I'll help you,"