Breath love - adopted by Elizabeth Olsen ✔️

36 - Panic again -

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TW: panic attack, self-harm

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Lizzie POV

Today has been busy. I've been running from meeting to meeting. I'm so glad I'm finally pulling into the driveway. Robbie's car isn't here yet so he is probably still in the studio or something. Or did he have meetings? I don't even know. He is doing something.

I walk into the house and see no one. Riley must be upstairs then. I grab some drinks for us and walk upstairs. I knock on her door before opening it. This sight is one I never want to see but unfortunately see very often. Her panic attacks are getting out of hand and worse. This is not okay.

I put the drinks on the desk and sit on her bed. I turn her desk chair towards me and take her hand into mine.

''What happened sweetie?'' I ask her when her eyes meet mine. I hope it wasn't those bullies again. I wanted to take her out of school and homeschool her or whatever. But she didn't want the bullies to win. I think it's brave of her but if she keeps having panic attacks because of them I will have to do what's right for her. It seems like this panic attack just began because she is pretty responsive.

''Math test. I failed.'' she choked out. I'm glad it wasn't those bullies.

''Okay,'' I say because I know her head is turning into something way bigger than it is.

''Okay?'' She asks looking confused but she is breathing a little harder than normal.

''Yeah, it's just a test. Who cares? Do you know how many tests I failed? It's all okay.'' I say truthfully.

''I thought you loved school.'' She says, and I laugh.

''Yeah, but not every subject,'' I confess. ''Come here, honey'' I say while opening my arms and she takes my invitation. She climbs onto my lap and hugs me. I hold her tightly and kiss the top of her head, like always. ''It's all going to be okay sweetie. In this house no one is going to be mad about a failed test, I promise you that.''

''Thank you''

''No, don't thank people for the bare minimum, please. Can I ask what the grade is?''

''B-'' She says softly and I let go of her to look in her eyes.

''Riley, a B- is freaking good, what are you talking about?'' I say shocked

''But I only get A's for math normally so I failed.''

''Honey, you did not fail. It was just a harder subject but a B- is still freaking good!''

''But,''

''No buts! It's a good score! Now what test do you have tomorrow?''

''Chem'' She says defeated.

''Want some help?'' I ask her, she looks hesitant but nods. We get up and walk to the kitchen where we spend the rest of the afternoon learning for her chemistry test. Eventually, Robbie comes home with some pizza, which we enjoy. Riley eats the three pieces she needs to eat and then says she is full. We don't push her any more than we have to. Eating should be fun, not a must.

''So how was your day loves?'' Robbie asks us and Riley tells him a bit about hers. Robbie asks some questions and then we move on to my day while we clean up. I told them how it was very busy and that I was glad to be home so I could rest a bit. At my words I see Riley's smile fall but I have no idea what that is about. We move on to talk about Robbie's day and in the middle of the conversation Riley asks to be excused up to her room. We let her go and continue to talk.

''I have a weird feeling, do you mind if I check on Riley?'' I asked Robbie, and he said it's all fine and to call him if needed. I make my way to her room and knock before entering. I don't see her there so I walk to her bathroom and knock, waiting for an answer.

''Go away,'' I hear her say and it sounds like she is not breathing right.

''Are you okay?''

''Yes, go.'' She says

''Riley, please don't lie to me'' I say but I get no more response. ''I'm coming in, sweetie,'' I say before opening the door. ''Oh, honey,'' I say when I see the blade pressed to her thigh.

''Please, fix it,'' she whispers,

''What? the cuts? Of course, let's clean them up! can you give me the blade?'' I say but she shakes her head.

''No, fix me.''

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Published: November 3rd, 2023

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