Sparks | A NeonxReader story

Chapter 34

Y/N P.O.V.:

'You don't even know the truth do you?' She said in her evil Hispanic accent, her demonic eyes glowing velvet. 

'They are afraid of you. . .'

I remembered what she said from back then. It had been months, and somehow, I just remembered what she said.  I wondered what she had meant.

In those months, I have started to feel something. . .different. Like there was something wrong with me, something evil. I first felt it the day Sage was murdered, but it had gotten worse, the more and more I felt it, the more angry I got. 

I was still angry about that day. It wasn't fair that she had to die for my failure. I wanted revenge, and I knew that I shouldn't feel like that. I was more  aggressive, and according to Tala, I had a scary face the entire time we were getting lunch about a week ago. 

I was doing my best at ignoring it, but something was happening inside me, and it wasn't good. I didn't know who to take my concerns too, because when it came to how I felt on the inside, like when something spiritually felt wrong with me, I would take it to Sage, but I couldn't anymore, and this only made me more angry. 

I decided to ignore it for the time being, I was walking back from a few errands and heading to my room, when suddenly I ran into Jett, and Reyna, and Phoenix. Being startled by their presence, I pulled my gun out very quickly, and for some reason seeing Reyna just made me want to kill her. 

I had full intention of killing the three of them while I had the chance, and didn't know why. 

"Woah easy there mate", Phoenix put his hands up, and Jett seemed slightly surprised and a little scared by the fact that I pulled a gun on them. 

"I'm not your mate", I said, hatred dripping from my mouth. My anger at everything was boiling over, and they were at the direct center of it. I hated their faces, not them, but who they remind me of. 

I put my gun away, and walked away furious, and I think they could tell, but I didn't care. I stormed into my room and didn't come out for a few hours. 

Timeskip. . .

I left my room because I was getting hungry, and wanted food, and I had left my book in the "living room" area, and I wanted it back. 

I grabbed my food and was met with Sova and Skye who were eating at that time as well. 

"Hello my friend, care to join us", Sova said. 

"No", I responded, trying to get in and out as quickly as possible, however he stopped me. 

"Wait", he said. Despite my desire to just leave, I did as he instructed, and stopped.

"What?", I asked with impatience. 

"I may have lost an eye, but I'm not blind. I know when someone is troubled. It isn't good to keep your feelings locked away", he said. 

I didn't really want to hear it at the moment. I decided to leave, unfortunately, on my way back, I was intercepted again, by the people I ran into a few hours ago. I felt angry yet again, but this time, I kept it to myself. 

"Hey, y/n, wait a minute", Jett called out to me. 

I didn't stop however, and kept walking. 

"Hey fam, we're trying to talk to you", Phoenix said. 

Something snapped in that moment, I flung my food against the wall, shattering the bowl it was in. I turned around and faced them, but something was wrong, it was like I wasn't in control of myself.