Sparks | A NeonxReader story

Chapter 41

Y/N P.O.V.:

I've never felt so shitty. . .

I lost an eye, I had to fight myself, and I have been lied to for who knows how long. 

Flashback. . .

It was two days ago, when Valorant HQ was attacked. Skye had managed to heal the damage I had sustained in my fight, but my eye, that she couldn't fix. 

I had a cloth wrapped around my head covering it now. I was beyond upset, because we just had our asses handed to us and we weren't even prepared. The earths best defense against Omega just got their asses kicked. 

But I couldn't get something off my mind. First Reyna told me, twice, then my double told me, that I was being held back. I was no match for my double, which would prove that what they had been telling me was true. 

I was tired of ignoring it. They weren't telling me something, and I wanted to know the truth. 

We had returned to our home, but the top twenty floors had been destroyed, and fifteen under those had been damaged due to the first twenty collapsing. But Brimstone still had his office, and that's where I was going. 

When I got there, I found that he wasn't in there. I walked around attempting to find him, and eventually I did. He was helping with the clean up of the place, but I didn't care what he was doing. 

"Shatter. How's you're eye?", he asked when he saw me. 

"Cut the bullshit", I said aggressively, I wasn't interested in conversation. "Why was I so much weaker than my double? Why was he ten times stronger than I was?", I asked. 

"What do you mean?", he asked. 

"You know exactly what I mean! I've been told three times now by the people who made me what I am, that I was being held back. And now I just got my ass kicked by someone who is identical to me. Why?", I asked. 

He didn't answer, he looked nervous, and unfortunately my tone had caused some attention to the people in the area. 

"Answer me!", I yelled. 

"Please allow me to explain everything", he said. I was completely blindsided by his response. 

"Its true isn't it?", I asked. 

He sighed. "Yes", he answered. 

I was confused, and upset at the same time, I didn't get why he would do that to me. Why wouldn't he tell me?

"How? What have you done?", I asked, my voice rising by the second. 

"You're sword prohibits you from using too much of your power. If you did, we fear it could take control of you", he answered. 

Is he serious? Take control of me? 

"You selfish asshole! Don't you see what you've done? None of this, any of this, would have happened if you had told me! If that were the case then I would have been aware that after a certain level my powers would become dangerous! I wouldn't have ever lost control! Sage wouldn't be gone! None of it!", I was now screaming at him. 

"You lied to me!", I yelled. 

"I did it because it would have been dangerous if you had known! If you had that power available to you at any point. It could cause more harm than good. We did it for your safety and the world", he said. 

"And Sage paid the price for that", I retorted. He seemed a little shook by my statement. 

"All this time you had held me back. You made me think that I was not strong enough to ever be able to protect the people I care about. On top of that, you made me believe that this was a place of trust, and the I was a friend. This is how you repay me?", I asked. 

I didn't know what to think. The only thing I felt was betrayal. He lied, and had restricted me for who knows how long, like I was some untamed dog on a leash. 

"What's going on?", I heard. Tala was here now. 

"Brimstone! He lied to me! He has been limiting me since the moment I got here! He's been keeping me on some leash!", I yelled, telling her what happened. 

I turned to look at Brimstone but I didn't here a word from her. I turned to look back and she looked horrified, like some secret had been exposed. The room was dead calm.

'No. She wouldn't' I thought. 

"Tala. . .did you know?", I asked. She wouldn't, she wouldn't, she wouldn't. 

"I-I. . .I", she was unable to get a word out. 

'She wouldn't' I kept repeating in my head, I didn't want it to be true.

"Tell me", I said. My voice was shaking, and I felt like my knees were about to come out from under me. 

'She wouldn't' 

She looked up to face me with only the biggest look of sorrow and regret as she answered. 

"Yes"

I couldn't believe it. The blood vanished from my face. With her answer I felt something break inside of me, and I took a step back from the two of them. She did, she lied to me. The one person who I trusted with anything, with everything, lied to me. 

I was incapable of saying anything, I was so dumbfounded that I was unable to speak. My breath was uneven, and my body was shaking. I didn't know what to believe anymore. 

"I'm sorry, I didn't have a choice!", she said, trying to defend herself. 

"I didn't know you then. I didn't know what you were capable of", she continued. I didn't want to hear it. My feelings of denial were beginning to be replaced with sadness. No anger, no frustration, just sadness. 

I wish it was anger, but it wasn't. This felt worse. 

'She did. She did' the words circled in my mind endlessly. I couldn't hear her anymore, I could only hear those words. 

She lied to me. 

'Was it something I had done to cause this? Why? How could she? After everything we had done or been through together. Why was I so sad? Why did this hurt me so bad?' questions circled through my head nonstop.

I had never experienced a greater feeling of pain, and the person who I thought would never hurt me, was inflicting it. 

My whole world began to fall apart inside of me, and I couldn't control it. I wanted to put it back and pretend like it never happened, but that was impossible. It did happen. 

"Please just listen to me!", I finally heard through my thoughts. She was standing right in front of me now, begging me to listen. But I couldn't listen. It didn't matter, none of it mattered.

All I had been doing, all this time, it just felt meaningless now. 

I didn't answer her, I didn't look at her. I unstrapped my sword from my side, and placed the weapon in her arms, before turning around and walking away. 

I didn't know what I was doing, my legs worked on their own, but I walked away from them, from her. Every step I took made the feeling of emptiness grow worse. 

It was all just pain, and it hurt worse than any experiment the Omega world had ever done on me. 

Nothing that had happened to me in the last ten years matched this. 

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