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What Are Your Intentions?

☆ Jordin's POV ☆

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Rajauny leaned back onto the wall behind him. Bracing himself with one leg.

"Wah yuh wah talk bout?" I asked, seeing he had no intention of speaking first.

He looked around our surroundings in search of...I don't know.

Why him a be suh scretive?

There wasn't anyone in the area which we stood. I looked behind me to where my mom was last, I could see the back of her wavy hair walking away with Gabriel's mom.

He let out a short breath before easing off the wall and stepping closer to me.

Once he was a few feet away from me he ran his hand through his curly hair.

A shoulda my hand dat 

"Yuh good?" He finally asks.

Blink.

Huh?

Blink.

I frown.

Blink.

"Jordin, yuh good?" He repeats.

And I'm left stunned for awhile. The question so shocking

2 words, 7 letters. Yet so agonizingly hard to find the answer to.

Because in this moment you realize that no one has ever asked you this before. And as much as you know the answer, it's so hard to wrap your mind around that fact that someone cares.

For the longest while you never cared about what they thought, but yet here comes the one question you've never heard anyone say.

Not your bestfriend, your mom, your dad. No one.

It makes you feel seen. It makes you feel more than okay. In this moment I am okay and I don't think I've been okay for the longest time.

So I tell him exactly that.

I smiled up at him, "I'm fine, there's nothing you need to worry about"

Because there truly really isn't.

I feel okay. I'm okay. You're okay. We're okay.

Rajauny sighed.

I don't know if it's good or if its bad. But when has a sigh ever been good?

"Jordin mi nuh know nothing bout mental health, but...I can tell when my sweet girl isn't okay. Suh decide if yah guh tell mi wah do yuh or mi ago need fi hurt somebody" Rajauny exclaims.

And I'm left stunned. My feet rooted to the ground, forming one with the concrete beneath my toes.

I feel as if I could sink into the ground right this moment, just the same as lava would sink trough a thin layer of napkin.

Shocked, confused, disoriented.

3 words to describe my state at this moment.

The world whizzes past me in slow motion clip. One of those clips you'd see in movies when the main character walks in. But I am no main character. Not even in my own life.

I gulp down the lump of saliva building in my throat, then I finally speak even though I know my words would betray me at any second.

"Wah y-yuh mean?" Wah me a stutter fah? I don't know.

I lift my eyes from the ground, looking into Rajauny's eyes.

I wish I hadn't.

They held some sort of softness to them. This warm emanating feeling of...something I don't know. His eyes were reading me like an open book.