March 23rd, 2023:
Don't listen to Girl in Red. Her songs will mess with your head and make you think the girl you like feels the same.
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Okay, diary. I'm trying to process something that just happened.
So, I got her Discord. We were talking about our story when, somehow, the topic changed from zombies and best friends in love to celebrity crushes. Then, we started joking about setting up our "wife material" actresses on a date. You know, normal friends behavior.
But then—out of nowhere—she goes, "maybe they could go on a date together and we could go on a date, just me and you."
Excuse me???
What do you mean just me and you? You can’t just drop that when I’ve spent the past two months convincing myself you don’t think of me that way. Now I have to sit here and pretend I didn’t overanalyze every word before bed?
Unbelievable.
And wanna know what else is unbelievable?
We started sharing songs—like, really sharing songs. The kind that says the things I deep down wanna say, but don't have courage yet. We even listened to "we fell in love in october" together, and at one point, we typed "you will be my girl" in the chat like we were singing it to each other.
That’s flirting, right? It felt like flirting.
But then today, she texted me like nothing happened. No hint of last night. No "sooo, about yesterday...." Just... nothing. We didn't even go back to our "normal", we went straight to an iceberg in the chat, a blizzard trying to freeze me whole before I got the chance to process everything.
She was so cold, so distant... It was as if we went back to strangers, and all because we were both too high on sleep to prevent any awkwardness on the next day.
Now I’m sitting here wondering—did I imagine all of it or was I just reading too much into things?
This is exactly why I didn’t wanna get attached. One moment, it feels like something, and the next, it’s nothing. And the worst part? I don’t even know what I want. I just know that if I let myself fall, there’s no way I’m coming out of this without a scratch.
Maybe I should stop listening to sapphic love songs with her.
Just to be safe.
XOXO
Confused (and annoyed) Nini
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