Live To Love You Freen&Becky Kathy&Lina

Give me your hand

It was already quite late, but i still couldn't sleep, i couldn't turn my head off, old memories and feelings were beating me up from inside. My head was becoming heavier and heavier. I should have spoken with girls when they offered me, no one ever did that till now, even Robbins.

I understood that i'm not going to be able to sleep so i got up made some tea and turned the heater on. 

I was sitting on the carpet near the sofa, looking at the candles and the sweetest memories were swimming in my head when i heard people walking in the corridor, it's like 3 am. 

I opened the door to see who was that.

-Girls.

-Yes, oh, we are sorry, didn't want to wake you up,- they were giggling and hugging each other like drunk couple.

-Are you drunk?

-What? No,- Becky said quickly and came close,- of course we are not.

-We are just happy,- Freen said with a low voice and wide smile.

-I see, good, good,- it was a bit awkward silence.

-Ok, we will go to sleep, sorry again, good night,- they started walking away.

-Girls,- i wasn't very sure, but i need to speak, i need to finely speak, after all these years, just ones.

-Yes

-Yes

They both immediately turned around and i could see the change in their faces.

-Would you like to drink a cup of tea?

-Yes sure,- they both said in unison.

....

We were all sitting comfortable on the floor, they were against the sofa, Freen's head was on Becky's shoulder, and they were holding hands, they are so sweet, i couldn't stop myself from looking at them. And just by looking, my chest was getting a bit warm of their love and sincerity. 

We were all silent just drinking tea and looking at the fire from candles. 

-So, what did you like the most about her?- suddenly Becky asked.

- What?

-About your love, what did you like the most about her? Her smile? Her eyes? Her smell? Maybe her taste...

-Beckyyy...- Freen scolded her a bit.

-What? I think we all are old enough.

-So, is what is it?

-Her, i liked her the most, i loved her the most...- i couldn't hold my tears anymore, and they both also got serious,- she was the best... she was the most amazing girl, just perfect...- i just broke into tears and couldn't calm down.

They both came to me and hugged me tightly from both sides. These two have healing powers, i swear. 

- Would you like to tell us about her? 

- Do you really wanna hear? 

-Yes

-Yes, Kathy, we are here for you,- they were both looking at me with the most innocent eyes. 

-Ok, but it might take a long time.

-Yayyy, girls night,- Becky said and they both got comfortable in the pillows and in each other's hug. 

- It was years ago, 10, if to be more correct, i was 16. I was at the beginning of the discovery process of myself. It was a very depressing and hard time for me. First i couldn't understand what was happening with me, in that time i have never even heard about gays, lesbians or even more seen people in real life nor in television. I was going through a hard process of self discovery and acceptance. But my parents didn't give me a chance to even fully understand who i am. One day they caught me watching videos on YouTube. I actually didn't even know what to search, so i was just searching ¨girls kissing girls¨ , and would just watch the videos, i wasn't sure about my sexuality back then, but apparently seeing me watching a video was enough for my parents to be sure that i am lesbian. After a week i was standing in front of this building, with all my belongings and was begging my parents to not leave me here.