Live To Love You Freen&Becky Kathy&Lina

I'm losing her

ATTENTION: SENSITIVE CONTEXT

Becky's POV

My body was crushed on my bed, and I couldn't hold myself together anymore. 

-Becky, what happened, dear? Is she okay? 

-No, I'm losing her.

-Why? What did she say? 

-I'm losing her... 

-Bec 

-I'm losing HER, I'm losing my love, my lovely girl, my sweet Freen. 

-Bec, calm down, we will find a way. 

-Mom, you don't understand... with every passing second I'm losing MY Freen, she is becoming another person in there, she is changing to survive, she is growing up and down, she is growing differently then she could have, she is losing herself... mom, do you know this feeling, this... that... when you love someone so much the oxygen is becoming toxic without her, when the water is bitter without her, when food is tasteless, days are dark, nights are long, life is a Black Hole without her. Mom, I ... I am in pain... please help me, make me feel better, like you have always done. Mom, make this stop, - I tapped on my chest a couple of times, maybe the physical direct pain will less the pain inside me.

-My child, my dear baby, please calm down, your dad is trying to find people who can help us. We will find a way for you two to be together, please try to think positively, she is a strong person, she has been through a lot already, during her whole life she saw a lot. And still she managed to stay so good, that my daughter has fallen for her so badly. 

- Mom, she is amazing and strong, but she is also so sensitive and soft. 

-What did she say, Bec? 

-She was crying mom, very badly, she is so strong, but she was crying, they had already broken her, she was apologising to me. 

-Why? Why would she do that? I'm sure she wouldn't do anything wrong. 

-I'm sure too, but that means she is sure she did something wrong, and that means something happened, something happened, mom,- I couldn't hold myself anymore, I just fell into my mom's hug,- it means she did something, that she doesn't like, that she hated and now she feels bad for that and she thinks I will be mad and angry because of that, so the first think she did was apologising and asking me to not hate her. 

-Bec, baby, please calm down, breathe okay, breathe, - mom was softly rubbing my back and I couldn't stop myself from crying or thinking what has happened to my girl. 

-Mom, they did something to her, mom. 

-Becky, but you talked to her, she is okay, she could speak on the phone, so she is fine, maybe something else happened. Just wait until you will see her again and will be able to speak to her. 

-Where is my phone, I need to speak with Kathy, we need to do something. Ohhh, shit, I haven't talked to her too, how she is feeling. 

- Call her, ask to come here, so you will talk. 

-She can't, mom, she is back in the centre, so ... 

-Okay, but I wanted to meet her and personally thank her. 

-Mom,- I hugged her again,- mommy, my mom, you can't even imagine how happy and relieved I am that you are not hating me and you have my back, and I can hug you and feel your love, mommy, thank you so much, I love you so much, you don't know how much. 

-My baby, my little child, you are a piece of my heart, I can never hate you or dislike you, I love you always, I am sorry again and again, for making you feel so bad and making you believe that your own mother hates you, I'm sorry my sweet BecBec, I love you so much.