Was it all worth it?

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-Clove-

"Did you say something?" Elie asked me as the door of the academy closed behind us.

"No why?"

"Hm weird i could've swear that i heard you say something. Anyways why would you try to piss off Cato?"

"Who?!" I asked confused.

"Don't play dumb Clove. Cato. Like In Cato Hadley. Duh." She said like i should've know the name of that blond idiot.

"Oh you're talking about Blondie? I don't know i just felt like it. It's the only way i can screw with him as he's like 2 times bigger than me."

"Yeah true but don't get to close to the fire because you're gonna get burned remember that girl." She said with a smile.

"Yes MOM i will remember." As soon as i said that we started laughing. Sadly it didn't last long as we get to the part where we have to go our spearate ways.

"See ya tomorrow Clove!"

"Ya bye Elie!" And just like that i was alone again going to an "empty" house.

As the street isn't that long i got home in no time. Or should i say the rundown of what once i called home. After moms death neither my dad or i did anything to keep it nice and clean, inside it's decent, but outside. Its a whole diffrent story. As i entered i smelled the alcohol. 'Yeeeez how much did he drunk today' as the thought left my mind i saw my dad stumbling across the room with yet another beer in his hand.

"Dad im back, if you care." i said making my way up the stairs.

"Mhirmhm okay" He mumbeled something. At least i understood one word which is rare.

I got to the bathroom took off all of my sweaty and bloody clothes and turned the water on. As the hot water started runing down i stteped into the shower. That feeling of water on my skin warm and comforting, just what i needed after what i've been through today. After getting all the dirt, blood, and feeling of sweat off my body i got out of the shower grabbed my towel wrapped it around myself, brushed my teeth and walked out from the bathroom. I turned right to my room and started looking for my pijamas. And ended up with grey sweatpants and a black hoodie as usual at that time of the year.
My closed consists of black and mainly darker colors so its not that hard to find something that goes together. I climbed under the blankets I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

*****

When i woke up in the morning i had a feeling it's late and it was. While trying to get out of my bed and start geting ready i remembered something. Yesterday was friday so today is Saturday. When i realized that i fell back on my bed. Staring at the celing i started thinking.

Why is my life is that way. Why it was my mom not someone else. Why the bimbo pack Bully me. Why do i tolerate that. Just a big BIG why. My whole life is a massive question mark.

After an hour of being lost in my thoughts i started to get ready. I got new clothes from my drower and put my hair into a simple ponytail. Making my way down the stair i didn't hear anything so that mean's one thing he is not there. As i got to the kitchen and made myself breakfast i sat alone at the table and ate slowly, taking my time. After that i put on my favorite combat boots. As Miles and Elie lived across the street from eachother i had to go to them we usualy hang out on weekend just because we dont have anything better to do. So as every week i made my way to thier houses. Even before i could knock on the door they swung open with Mikes in them.

"Clove! I've hear what you did yesterday you're awesome. Tell me did he boiled with rage? Because the only thing Elie told me was that you just kinda insulted him." Miles asked as excited as a kid on a christmas eve. While he let me inside of house.