Was it all worth it?

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-Clove-

As the two bimbos got colser and closer to me i was ready to bitch slap both of them.But i didn't have to do that and i couldn't do it even though i would love to.

Cato got im front of me and did something that i would never see coming from him."Back off idiots.Just leave her alone if you want to have a problem with someone have it with me.If you would see the whole situation you would've seen that it was all because of me.She still hates me maybe a little less but it's still hate.We don't feel anything romantic towards the other one so just drop it and leave at least Clove alone.If you want to talk our issues over, talk with me dont mess with someone i got close too.Got it?"He didnt yell he was calm and whats more interesting i think Unzia and Anisia got the memo.Because they left the gym.

"Listen you didn't have to do that i was fine on my own." I pushed him aside.

"Yeah i know as you always are Clove always alone always on your own.You don't let anybody close to you.Maybe one day it will chenage." Cato said as i started walking away to the weights station.Those words got to me.

"You are close to me in some way you idiot!Maybe you don't see that maybe i don't show that but they were right you're closer to me than anybody else!" I didn't turn to say it i yelled it as i went.

We didn't spoke the rest of the day i was throwing metal around and he played with his swords as usual.But his words and words of Anisia and Unzia haven't left my mind.Maybe he was right maybe pushing everybody away is bad for me.But now its to late to let anybody close to me as i can just be dead in 4 weeks from now.I don't need to feel like im leaving anything behind me i don't need to feel like i will loose Anyone or anything if i don't succed in the games.I have to go in win it for me and for the districts glory.To prove everyone wrong to prove to myslef that im worth someting.To make my mom happy to make her proud so her death won't go to waste.

3 weeks later..

3 weeks go by like its nothing.I didnt speak to Cato neither he did to me.I watched most of the games learning what to do and what not to do.I studied plants in secret.Most careers ingore that as they think sponsors and cornocopia loot will be enough but it almost never is.I even learned that there are some poisonous berries that grow only behind 12 and the look really similiar to normal berries that Cato and I ate in the woods.This knowledge might come in handy in the arena if our loot won't be enough.

-Cato-

3 Weeks.3 WEEKS.Where did it go its our last day before the games and as the "team" we don't even talk it won't do us any good in the arena.But its somewhat good we won't be attached to eachother as much.We will be able to kill one another to win.In the end only thing that counts is winning killing as many as you can bringing the pride and honor to the district.
We got the last day off to mentaly prepare for the reaping the talk with families pick our outfits and other idiotic useless stuff.Why would winners talk to families like it's their last?Clove don't have any family anyways and mine is hard to call it a family but whatever.Olny thing that counts in my house is me being a winner of the games and making my little sisters life as good as it can be.She watches the games with my dad ,my mom cares for her more than for me ,herself and dad together.I don't blame her maybe one person in that family will get a normal life.
I personaly decided to spend that day alone.

REAPING DAY

-Clove-

The sun woke me up i always hated being awaken by the sun peeking reough the window but today i dont feel that way as it is my day.
Finally its my day my reaping my day to shine.It suck that i have to wear some stupid dress but its all mat black and its not short it goes almost to my knees.Design overall isnt so bad i guess its tight fit on top with long sleeves and from waist down it gains volume the lower parts is the same material as the top but it has tiul anderneeth so it keeps it form somewhat. Not my style at all but Agerlie said it will work perfectly for me. I don't wear any make up and not doing anything fancy to my hair.Today i will just let it flow freely probably for the last time for next 3 weeks.
After getting into that dress it was time for shoes and jawelery.Boots i didn't took anyone's advice and wore my lucky combat boots.I cleaned them yesterday made every effort to make them look good.
Last pice of my outfit was an golden neckle that i found in one of the boxes i took from my dads house.It probably belong to my mom years ago, so i will just wear it whats the harm.