Ode to All the Girls that Never Fit

Delusional

I'm not delusional
I'm just lonley
My mind takes over me
It starts to control me
But what is a girl to do
When she beats herself black and blue
When she can't differentiate real love in the air
And the love she feels while in despair
When she lays in her bed
Reading of romance
And when a fictional boy asks her to dance
She asks herself why won't they give me a chance
But when they stare a little to long
Or smile a little too big
She loses all logic
And hope starts to creep in
Maybe they like me
Just a bit
Maybe this time their not full of it
Maybe when he asks me out it won't be a dare
Maybe he will like for people to see us together
Everywhere
But then he looks away
And his smile turns to a frown
And all that hope
Is gone now
She goes back home
And lays in her bed
And keeps reading of the same romance
Over and over again
A cycle that is never ending
Full of hope and despair
That this pitiful girl
Carries everywhere
When I weighs her down
She doesn't mind
Because that hope is going to always be buried
Deep inside
And some day she hopes
She won't have to hide