You hate me
Or at least you used to
But now
I'm not so sure I hate you
We like the same stuff
Know the same songs
But I think you think it's all wrong
Maybe your embarrassed of me
Like everyone else is
Or maybe it's plain and clear
And you don't feel anything.
You like other girls.
And I like you.
And that's the horrible truth
Maybe I even love you
But I know
I know
It will never be true for you
So I will pretend
Every. Single. Fucking. Day.
That I'm just ur friend
And that's all I want
And that it would be ridiculous
For me to actually want someone for once
I never like boys
I'm too smart for that
Too driven
Too focused
But you
You ruin everything
I have ever thought about myself
I'm desperate when it comes to you
I lie about loving your interests
I laugh way too hard at your jokes
I make a mood board on pintrest
I swear this is gods
Sick way of expressing karma
To put me in a cage
With food just too far out of my reach
And forcing me to starve to death
Because that's what this feels like
Starving while staring at a meal
I Know you don't want me
Even if you knew how I feel
YOU ARE READING
Ode to All the Girls that Never Fit
PoetryTo all the girls who never felt good enough, small enough, or pretty enough... this is for you. No upload schedule, just whenever I write a poem.
