Twisted

Chapter 22: Feisty Vengeful Girl

Another month past, and I had slowly started to get to know the other members. I hated being in crowds for long. I tried, I really did, Doctor Hans was impressed with my progress. I had taken Gally's advice and started meeting with Nurse Connie, twice a week. It took a while to trust Doctor Hans to the point I could go to my follow up appointments alone. I always had either Gally or Sophie with me. My palms still went sweety and itchy, my mouth was dry and I was more jumpy, but Hans was very patient with me. 

I had started helping the Resistance members with their humanitarian outings. Usually in the background, so I didn't have to deal directly with so many people. But it was nice to get out of the building, out into the sun and heat and learn about the wild world. It was unsettling being in the city, when there was a huge grey stone wall that went hundreds of feet into the air. This time these walls were keeping us out and WICKED inside. I had that going for me, WICKED refused to come outside the walls. My heart still beat way too hard and I started to shake if I got too close to the wall. But for the sake of the others, and our efforts to help the people, I bottled it up, and kept a tight lid on it, until I was back in the safety of my room. 

I had also got to know Zayn better. He had slowly grown on me, his quiet brooding presence was similar to mine, but where he was calm, I had the quiet anxiety, he kept me calm. I was grateful for the people in my life. Magnus, Sophie, Zayn, Gally, Doctor Hans and Nurse Connie, they were my family. I had no idea where Tommy and the others were and it hurt my heart every time I thought of it. I could feel the knife twist a bit deeper. I would also panic and usually have a full blown panic attack when I thought of Minho still stuck in WICKED with Janson. I felt incredibly guilty he was left behind. Magnus constantly told me it wasn't my fault. I had no idea of the plan he and Minho worked out. I was still drugged when this all went down. Magnus kept saying he takes full responsibility for what happened, but I still had that survivors guilt. Gally reassured me they were working on something, it was just taking a while. 

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I had just finished showering when there was a loud bang on the door. I jumped and fell back into the wall. My eyes went wide and I was instantly back in WICKED. I slid down the wall, cowering in the corner. Biting my lip to keep from crying, he never liked when I cried, I had to learn to keep the pain inside. There was another loud bang on the door.

"Hurry up!" Came a loud voice on the other side of the door. 

I couldn't take a breath deep enough to say anything. There was stabbing pain in my legs my vision had black spots, silent tears slid down my face. I couldn't stand up to unlock the door, My legs hurt, the pain got worse the more I thought about needing to get up. I had to unlock the door, to let Him in..the longer I stayed hidden the worse my punishments would be, but I couldn't get up, because the pain, I was frozen in fear, I couldn't move, and if I couldn't move then it would be worse...

I heard some scuffling and loud voices. It made me cry harder. I clamped hands over my mouth, to keep the sobs to myself. I had no idea how long I stayed cowering in the corner, sobbing and shaking. I vaguely heard thuds and scraping, loud voices calling out, but it made no scene to me. I tried to push myself into the wall and disappear. Two hands grabbed me and I screamed. I was instantly in the fight and flight, I thrashed and twisted, fighting the hands, screaming and sobbing. 

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Please no! Please! I won't do it again!"

"Charlie!"

 "Don't hurt me, please! I'm sorry!" 

"Go get Gally!"

"I didn't mean to! I'm sorry!" 

"Charlie!"