The walls are closing in around me, how could I be so wrong about someone? How could he have lied so confidently to my face? disgust in his voice at the mere thought of me accusing him. Am I this stupid?
My brain can't comprehend or link who I know Lando is, or who I think he is - to what I think is happening, it just doesn't fit. This isn't him. Could there be any other explanation as to why he would have this officers bank details other than to send him money to cover up what he had done? Im losing my mind.
As awful as I know this is, i'm less concerned about the actual hit and run part of this situation than the covering up and the ability to lie like that. This just isn't the person I know.
Where is he?!
That heavy room door swings open, hitting off the inside wall as Lando waltzes in, just his robe on with 2 pizza boxes wrapped firmly in his arms.
"Oh good, so you've finished arguing with your boyfriend then, margarita or pepperoni?" He smirks, throwing the pizza boxes down on the bed.
"Look who sounds jealous now." I respond.
I don't know how to react, I don't know how to bring this up or tell him - And I really want pizza. Just looking at that face and that inviting smirk as he makes a joke about my situation draws me back in to him immediately and I have to remind myself to snap out of it, he might not be who I think he is at all.
Strings of cheese drip from my mouth while I'm practically inhaling slices of pizza, building up the courage to eventually ask him what was going on. "Ok tell me what's wrong right now? You look scared Lil, did Charles say or do something?" He says before I had the chance to ask him anything.
"It's not Charles, that didn't go great either but I just need to ask you something Lando."
His face changes from an angered look, thinking Charles had upset me, to a look of concern and worry that he'd upset me himself.
"What is it, you can ask me anything you know that?" His voice softens as he takes one of my hands holding it in his occasionally brushing over my thumb, waiting for me to respond.
"I, umm. Why... why do you have the bank details of the police officer from today? Did you bribe him Lando? What is going on I'm so confused."
Snapping his hand away from mine, lifting himself from the bed, "You can't be fucking serious." He shouts at me. I've never seen anger like this in his eyes, they're usually filled with warmth and happiness but all I see is rage, pure rage.
"A BRIBE FOR WHAT? Go on! What exactly did I need to bribe him for Lilly?! Huh?!" He continues to shout but I have nothing to respond, I'm completely stunned.
"I... please stop shouting I didn't think you would have done it Lando I just... why do you have his bank details Lando? I just don't get it?! Just explain to me."
"I shouldn't fucking have too!!!"
Trying my best to hold back the tears that have been slowly building and are now close to overflowing. I hated seeing him like this, why couldn't I have just asked him about the bank details, WHY did I have to ask if he had bribed him? That's what's made him react like this.
"I know you shouldn't, I'm sorry! Can you just tell me please?!"
"I didn't want to worry you! That's the only reason I didn't say anything to you! He recommended I get help from his brother who's a Private Investigator, we think someone might have intentionally tried to set me up for this by taking the car in my name, and how were they to know this woman wouldn't have died?! Someone's out to get me Lilly!! I paid him to fucking help. He's looking into it more deeply that's all!! I can't believe you'd actually think I'd done this and then bribed him, to what? Cover it up?! This isn't a fucking TV show Lilly."
He's furious.
And I'm stupid. So, so stupid.
"I'm so sorry I've been sat here thinking this couldn't be true, it's impossible. I knew there had to be another explanation Lando, I'm so sorry, and I thought the same earlier about someone setting you up but I also didn't want to bring it up and then worry you if it was something you hadn't considered! Im SO sorry."
Anxiously digging my feet into the soft carpet, I grab both of his wrists pulling myself up towards him, moving my hands to either side of his face. I pull his head towards mine so our foreheads are touching. "Hey come here please, please forgive me I didn't believe you were capable of this I promise, I was just questioning my own judgement. I'm sorry." Pleading with him. I was completely in the wrong here, I'd messed up big time.
"You can be such an asshole sometimes you know. Of course I forgive you but don't ever distrust me again, and don't ever accuse me of anything either, just ask - and you'll get the truth."
I don't want to let him go.
"I know I'm an asshole, I'm honestly so sorry Lando, I just jumped to my own stupid conclusion and that was so so wrong of me to do."
I feel his breath on my face, his hand brushing my cheek as I'm holding onto both of his, the thought of potentially losing him for a moment broke me in two, I think it's something I'd never considered because he'd always been there - no matter what. The fear of having him leave me ignited something in me, it's made me realise how much I actually care for him.
"Sometimes I wish I didn't love you." The words roll off his tongue. Filled with genuine frustration and hurt yet he was smiling at me.
Did he just say he loves me?
I think I love him too. I'm not sure anymore, I know I want to at the very least attempt and salvage my friendship with Charles if that's all I can ever do, my emotions are too messed up right now, but I do know I never want Lando to not be by my side.
Tonight's made that clear to me. I used to just want to rip his clothes off, it used to just be sexual attraction, but now I wanted his company, his comfort, his shitty jokes and his never ending sarcasm and flirting, his windups his cuddles - I wanted it all. Is that what being in love is?
"Well i'm glad you do. I don't want you to stop loving me Lando" Finally giving in and planting my lips onto his, the kiss was perfect. Long overdue and perfect.
"I know about today aswell Lilly, I know what you've done - just talk to me when you're ready." He says, continuing to softly kiss me before pulling away, holding me in his arms tucking my head underneath his chin.
I know exactly what he's talking about, and I wasn't ready to deal with it yet. But how did he know?
Of course...
My jacket he took for dry cleaning.
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DNS 2
Fanfiction*MUST READ BOOK 1 FIRST* Book 2 of DNS, as we follow Lilly's journey throughout the next year of her life she must face tough decisions. Hurt, loss, betrayal and love. Will anything end up how she thought - or hoped it would?
