Honestly, from an outside point of view - how bad does this even look? Actually thinking about the gravity of what's happening right now is making me feel sick.
Lando left, and in my defence right now; he left and ultimately ended things with me without even the courtesy and respect to have spoken to me in person. BUT... he's also back within the space of a few hours, and during that time I now have Charles in my hotel room. I'm truly going to look like the absolute worst person in the world.
"CHARLES." I try and whisper yet shout at the same time as I grab his arm to stop his approach to the door.
"You can't do this, PLEASE. Please don't open the door, PLEASE. He will never speak to me again." I'm almost begging at this point, well there's no 'almost' about it, I'm just straight up pleading with him.
"Just go. Just fucking go. Leave the room now and I won't say anything but leave now before I change my mind." His eyes are dark and blank almost looking straight through me. I know i must be hurting him now but all that I can think about is making sure I can somehow keep this from Lando and attempt to mend things with him. Surely if he's back here he's came because he still wants to be with me. Right?
I run to the hotel door swinging it open and closing it behind me as quick as I possibly can, while guiding him away from the entrance.
"Lil, I'm so sorry, just come here. I fucked up but I promise that will never happen again." He says throwing his arms around me as my back hits the door to the hotel room. I want to just hold him and not let go but I'm also thinking about Charles sitting 3ft away listening to this conversation.
Lando grabs my waist pinning me against the hotel room door. He starts kissing my neck. Fuck.
This can't happen, not here... not now!
"I love you, im sorry." He pants breathlessly while continuing to kiss my neck moving across my collar bone, I'm trying not to moan at this point but I can't make my body push him away.
"Open the door."
He looks at me while commanding I open the door to the room, I know what he's thinking and I want him too, but this really couldn't be a worse situation.
"I... I can't" I whimper. "I've left the key card inside the room, let's go to the car."
I couldn't think of anything else to say in the moment, hoping he would take my cue and we would head downstairs, but breaking the moment... is the sound of the shower turning on from inside my room.
Is he serious. Fuck. Sake.
He's absolutely done this on purpose.
"Huh, is someone in your room?" Lando's face pulls back from me while he glares at me looking a mixture of confused and angry.
"No, why?" I don't know what else to say but I'm hoping I can somehow pass this off as the shower sound coming from the next joining room.
"Right let's go down to reception and get a replacement key so we can get back into your room." He's not directly accusing me of anything but I can tell by how quickly he wants to get into the room that he knows something is going on.
Again...Fuck.
As we descend in the lift heading down towards the lobby, I'm trying to keep my composure - but inside I'm on the verge of a breakdown trying to hold it together.
Lando storms toward the lobby desk with fury and urgency in his eyes as he demands a room key to my room! As his back is turned away from me i'm frantically trying to type a message to Charles - pleading with him to leave the room. I honestly don't see this going well at all.
Once again in my usual fashion - I've made a mess of things.
My heart is beating out of my chest, Lando has been handed a spare room key so we can get into the hotel room. He grabs my hand directing me back towards the lift, I can physically hear my own heart beat as if it's thumping through surround sound speakers, trying to control my breathing so I don't look panicked.
Floor 1, floor 2, floor 3... I watch the light move between the buttons on the lift as we near our exit.
I'm screwed.
The lift doors open, he almost sprints towards the door. I feel physically sick as he swings it open.
Nothing? The room is empty, he looks back at me almost disappointed as if he wanted to catch me out - I don't blame him.
Where had Charles gone? So much was running through my mind right now but all I could do was breathe a sigh of relief!
I think I've gotten away with this, I go to wrap my arms around Lando but he pushes me away...
"Where is he?" He asks sternly.
"What are you talking about Lando?" I respond.
"He might not be here but do you think I'm fucking stupid, I saw his car outside."
FUCK.
My face drops, I have no words, what do I even say to this...
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DNS 2
Fanfiction*MUST READ BOOK 1 FIRST* Book 2 of DNS, as we follow Lilly's journey throughout the next year of her life she must face tough decisions. Hurt, loss, betrayal and love. Will anything end up how she thought - or hoped it would?
