DNS 2

Chapter 19 - Assumption

Do I wake him up?

I think I have to. My heart is pounding out of my chest, the walls of this hotel room no longer appear as if they're even distant from me, it feels as if everything is closing in around me. I'm aware I'm potentially being extremely dramatic but right now I honestly feel as if every part of me has shattered into a million pieces.

"Lando." Barely a whisper able to escape my mouth as I build up the courage to say his name.

"Lando wake up." I say, now loud and stern as I'm shaking his arm trying my best to wake him. I can't wait until the morning to ask him about this - I just can't. I slide his phone back onto his side of the bed just as his eyes begin to flicker and eventually open.

"What's wrong? Are you ok?" He says, still half asleep and struggling to string his sentence together.

No I'm not ok? And I need him to properly wake up before I ask what's going on, I want the truth.

"No I'm not ok. Wake up and talk to me now, what the fuck is going on Lando?"

The moment he hears me swear and the tone of my voice switch to direct anger, his eyes widen and he now immediately looks wide awake. "What are you talking about? What's upset you?" He asks, seeming pretty taken back and confused.

"Ok I'm not going to jump around this at all with you, look at your messages now and then tell me if you understand why I'm pissed off, which you absolutely should." I snap.

Frantically scrambling around for his phone - he grabs it and begins to glance over the notifications and messages.

"Are you serious? So rather than asking me you're just going to believe her when I've told you nothing is going on? He asks. "And you've been looking through my phone?"

I'm genuinely stunned, is he ok? So just because he's told me there's nothing going on with her I'm supposed to believe that nothings going on after seeing the message she's sent him? I may sometimes be naive and every part of me is wanting to completely ignore that Ive even seen the message to try and hold onto this perfect picture of Lando I've painted in my mind, but no? I'm not just overlooking this.

"Are you the one that's serious?! The girl has called you baby and asked when you're getting back? Don't talk to me as if this is nothing. Don't react to me here as if I'm stupid, if there's nothing going on then message her back and ask what she's talking about, or actually... how about you just call her?" I respond, furious at this point.

"I'm not going to call her, I don't want to speak to her Lilly, she's not left me alone since I left things between us. I'll message her saying whatever you want if that's what it's going to take for you to believe me, but this is joke. You should just take my word for it."

Should I? Now I'm actually questioning if I've overstepped, how has he ended up making me feel like he's somehow a victim here?

I can't believe I'm even asking him to do this - but fuck it. "Message her now and say..."

Message - Hey why have you messaged asking that? We've not spoken in ages so what are you talking about?

I can't believe I've made him send it but surely I'll be able to immediately gage what's going on based on her response. It's now a waiting game, an awkward and long waiting game. Lando is silent, I'm silent. The room is silent. You could cut through the tension in the air with a knife. Please for the love of god I wish she would just message back, I can't bear this any longer.

Message notification.

My eyes dart to his phone, and then up towards his face to see what reaction he has, but to my surprise - he immediately hands me the phone after skimming over the message.