One finger still under my chin as he holds my face up towards his, and I can't break away from his eye contact. He leans in to kiss me but I quickly snap my face to the left making his kiss land on my cheek.
The reality of the situation hit me like a brick to the face and I was so sucked in for a moment - but I couldn't allow myself to get carried away.
Today has been tough.
We had so much that needed to be discussed, and I can't just let those dangerously seductive eyes lure me back into bed with him. As much as I dropped my guard for that split moment, there's no way I could have went through with doing anything.
The lift doors slide open, breaking the split second of awkwardness after I'd turned away from the kiss and I leave ahead of him, speed walking to the door of our room before letting myself in and heading straight to the bathroom, locking the door behind me.
I needed a moment. Now that I'm here and in my own space, the adrenaline of the day began to leave my body, I don't think I'd actually sat and had a chance to digest everything, because so much was happening so quickly, it was one worry followed by another.
Peeling the clothes from my cold damp skin, I get into the shower and the heat is almost painful as steam begins to fill the room, painful but so so nice. I don't think I'd ever appreciated or realised how nice just being warm felt, the colour finally returning to my skin.
"Lilly are you ok? I'm really sorry I shouldn't have done that, I got carried away in the moment." A softness in his voice as he speaks to me from outside the bathroom, he must have his face to the door because it sounds as if he were in here with me.
"I'm just trying to warm up, you don't need to apologise - I was getting carried away too." I say back to him, now sitting down on the floor of the shower just letting the warm water rush over me.
"No Lil I'm sorry, I should never have tried anything, I was so caught up with what my day had been like and the stress of everything at the police station, I didn't for one minute think about how hard yours was, I'm so sorry. Are you seriously ok? Do you want to talk about it?"
I hear him slide down the door before what sounded like him landing to sit on the floor, he must be sat right outside with his back to the bathroom door.
I don't think I want to talk to him about it yet, I'm not ready to have that conversation. But I just wanted his comfort, and what I did need to talk to him about; was the hit and run he was accused of.
"It's ok Lando, it's honestly ok, you had so much going on too but I don't want to talk about it just yet, but I do need to talk to you."
I wrap a towel around myself and unlock the bathroom door, Lando falls backwards on to the damp bathroom floor as he was resting his whole body weight into it before I'd opened it. "Come in here please it's too cold out there." I pull him up off the floor, realising he was still in his damp clothes too.
"Ok you really need to warm up and get a shower too Lando, you're going to make yourself ill."
"That's not a very subtle way of you trying to get me naked." There really was no stopping him sometimes, mid way through a serious conversation and he still managed to slide in a joke.
"Lando! Really?" Raising my eyebrows at him as I respond.
"Ok sorry, sorry."
"I'll face away from you, just get warmed up please, and I need to ask you about the police station today, and you have to promise to tell me the truth no matter what ok." My voice beginning to take a more serious tone.
"I'll always tell you the truth, when have I not." He's right. I don't think he's ever lied to me, but also - how would I know if he had? I hear the shower turn back on before I'm hit in the head with a pair of boxers. Lovely.
"Did you tell them I was with you at the time it happened so that I was your alibi?"
"What. Are you fucking serious Lilly? No, of course I didn't." His words begin with anger and end in disappointment, disappointment that I'd think that of him I imagine.
"Shit. I'm so sorry Lando, I wasn't accusing you of anything I promise, but I need to tell you something, I think I might have fucked up badly here - I said you were with me at the time."
"WHY would you do that?! What's wrong with you?!" He shouts at me. It feels wrong having this conversation with my back too him because all I want to do is turn around and apologise, but it would feel just as wrong turning round and having this conversation while he's naked, maybe I should have waited until after we'd both showered to talk about this. That would have been the most logical thing to do but it's too late for that now.
"Lando I'm sorry, I knew you wouldn't have done it, I knew it for certain so I just panicked and said you were with me. I thought if they had nothing to say you weren't there at the time then I would be helping. I'm so sorry. I really thought I was helping."
I'm almost in tears at this point, what if I've messed it all up for him. If he had told them he wasn't with me and I'd told them he was? We could both get in serious trouble for this.
"Luckily for you it's ok, but don't ever lie for me again - you'll never have to. Id never put you in a position to need to Lilly." He says sternly, but strangely softly. I think he knew I was only trying to help.
"I won't I promise, what do you mean luckily? What happened?" I ask.
"The reason I was there for so long was because they were trying to get the footage that would clear me of the incident. I knew I was in the gym at the MTC at that time, they just needed camera access to confirm, which they got in the end."
Oh my god. The tiniest part of me was truthfully terrified that he might have done it - once again caused by letting my overthinking send me into false reasoning, but every other part of my soul knew it couldn't have been him. He didn't have a bad bone in his body.
"So you're not on their radar anymore? You've fully proved your innocence?"
"I have. There's nothing left to worry about."
Thank god.
"So do they have any idea who actually did it? Because it must have been someone from the MTC right?" I ask.
"Yes and whoever it was, was driving the factory car I was loaned at the time, the police have the registration plate caught on camera leaving the MTC, but you can't make out anyone's face."
"Lando are you serious?"
Why doesn't he seem concerned at all? Is he thinking this is just some coincidence, some simple mistake? Or am I the crazy one here for immediately jumping and assuming someone's done this on purpose to set him up? Why would someone take his car and then it just so happens then there's a hit and run?!
"Yeah they'll get to the bottom of it, I don't need to worry about it anymore anyway."
Is he for real?
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DNS 2
Fanfiction*MUST READ BOOK 1 FIRST* Book 2 of DNS, as we follow Lilly's journey throughout the next year of her life she must face tough decisions. Hurt, loss, betrayal and love. Will anything end up how she thought - or hoped it would?
