I Became A Womanizer After The Apocalypse

I must die, all must die

"What did I do wrong in my past life to be put into this torture? I don't deserve this." 

"It's just a girl that I am looking for but it seems like all of them don't like me, no one likes me. They are all a disappointment."

"Or, am I ugly? That's not right, I am fucking handsome. It might be because I am poor, Yes, it has to be it. I have seen even the most ugly of men out there have their own harem of beautiful women just because they are rich."

"However, in the college, there are people like me who are just as poor as me. Take Dickson Otis for example, he is my friend who lives in the slums just like me but that dick has a girlfriend but what about me? All the girls don't want to be with me, Why?"

"I have a dick, I am handsome, I am a gentleman, a caring guy, I am straight and wholly. What do these girls want that I don't have?"

"It seems like I am just hapless, yes. It has to be haplessness, there is nothing else that can explain my current predicament."

"Just look at my life. Since I was born, there is nothing good that has ever came on my way. Everything has merely been a disappointment after disappointment."

"Even my real parents don't want to see my face, my brothers disdain me, my teachers at college don't even take me seriously, other students make fun of me, no one wants to be my friend, I don't have money or job either. I have nothing entirely. For fuck's sake, why me?"

"The world has suppressed me utterly, it doesn't want to see me prosper or be happy. It simply wants to see me suffering, getting rejection after rejection and be depressed each time. Fuck everything! Fuck me, fuck everyone! I didn't do anything wrong to anyone but the unfortunate just has to happen to me."

"Fucking bastards! I think something is wrong with me, this is not right. It is like I am carrying the burden of the entire world on my shoulders. This has to end, the world has to find someone else to carry the load on my shoulders. It doesn't have to be me. I can't take it anymore."

Jaffery Lutta was utterly devastated. Among his stuffs that the police returned to him, one of them was a not lit up stick that he mistakenly kept it in his pocket while he was still enjoying a good time with Recho Wairimu.

Jaffery Lutta took out this black stick and walked to one of the shops beside the hotel and asked for a lighter. One should know that this shop only sold cigars, liquor and khat, So, it was not that hard to find a lighter here. Jaffery Lutta didn't have to pay for the lighter because he only needed to light his stick and then return the lighter to the shopkeeper.

Just like that, Jaffery Lutta took a puff and decided to walk back to college, he didn't knew why he was going there but he just found himself walking towards that side, even if from where he was, his home was quite near as compared to where the college was.

One should know that now that Jaffery Lutta didn't have any money, he was forced to walk to college which was 7km from where he was but he didn't care, he was determined.

After a few hours,

"I am so tired. Even the food that I ate in that hotel is now no more. I am so hungry." Jaffery Lutta had lifeless eyes as he walked on the walkway haggardly as if he was drunk.

The seven kilometers that he was forced to walk had taken a huge toll on him because he had never walked that far, he was dehydrated and hungry and he felt as if the world was revolving around him, it was like he was in a roller coaster ride but that was not it because he was clearly using his own legs the to walk.

1800Hrs.

This was the time that Jaffery Lutta reached at the CBD. As one should know that the college was in the CBD.

Presently, the students had finished the day's lessons and moved to their hostels or homes, Jaffery Lutta didn't knew what he was going to do in the college when he himself didn't have a space in the school's hostels. He was after all, a day-scholar.

"I must die, all must die. Why suffer in this world as I await for the day that I'll die? If I have a lifespan of a hundred years, then I have remained with 83years before I die, that's too much time, I can't hold on for that long... Me being in this world is merely helping others, I think god will have to pardon me for my nuisance. I must die earlier than the day my god has planned. Ooh dear lord, this humble maiden is coming." With his lifeless eyes and tired look, Jaffery Lutta hollered this while dragging his body along the walkway. Other passers-by simply glanced at him before continued with their own business. They had seen much more than this and thought that Jaffery Lutta was merely a retard. 

"The city has become a home for so many retards and disabled individuals. I think the government should do something about this."

"All these beggars who ask for money from the passers-by in the city streets are  giving our beautiful city a bad look. If I was the governor, I would have either killed all these beggars or abolished their activities in the city or take them somewhere else, maybe in the countryside so that the city doesn't look this bad."

"Just ignore them."

"I really don't care about the presence of the beggars in the city. What I know is that the beggars are  people just like you guys. It is only a patriotic fool who will say the words that you are saying. Actually, I am not patriotic and I don't care even if this country plunge itself into mayhem, what I only care is the well-being of my family and I."