ALIVE | bonten x reader

𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟚𝟘 - 𝒅𝒐𝒏𝒆

You take the chance and bow down to your shoes, your heart beating in your throat it seems like, and you place your shoe on the first step of the small staircase, to make it seem like you want to tie your shoelaces. With shaky hands you open the laces and breathe out heavily, noticing your breath was visible because of the cold air surrounding you. 

I can do this. Relax y/n.

Slowly looking left to the entrance of the small alley, to check if there is someone there, you put your gaze down to your bag to reach inside. You feel the heavy bag, filled to the brim with some kind of pills. Switching your nervous gaze to the entrance again, you pull out the bag and place it on the top of the small staircase leaning it against the big trashcan, and bring your hand back to your shoe. You tie the shoelaces, switch feet and do the same to your other foot, all while checking the entrance here and there for someone spying on you. 

Lifting your body up again after tying your shoelaces, you try to contain yourself from getting another panic attack.

Everything's fine. Everything's fine. Everything's fine. Everything's fine. Everything's fine.

Over and over you tell yourself that nothing happened and it's time to go and get out of here, take a little walk around the area and then cross the street to text Kakucho. Your breath is still hitching from the fear of something happening, but you just pull up your scarf, so no one can see it and you walk out the dark alley.

I did it. I fucking did it. Fuck yeah.

As you start walking, the tension slowly fell off of you and you could take deep breaths again. You walk a little while to stroll around the blocks and wanted to smoke a cigarette while doing so. You pull out the pack, take out one and put it between your lips and search the pockets of your clothes in hopes of finding a lighter. Still walking along, you let out a big sigh and notice, how tense your shoulders were the whole time, so you let them fall down and relax, although a bit annoyed because you couldn't find something to light your cigarette with. 

Maybe in my pants? 

You pocket your pants, but find nothing. 

You were almost back at the point where you crossed the street, when you got out of the car, but you could see Kakucho wasn't back and you had to take another walk around the block while waiting for him to arrive. You were freezing, because it was getting late and the cold of the night was coming at you at a fast pace. You could feel your nose getting redder and runnier, as well as your cheeks, which have gotten a slightly darker tone of rose in the matter of only half an hour. 

Sometimes you could see some people lingering around but you brushed it off, since no one bothered you and you went your way. You suddenly stopped walking, the cigarette falling to the ground, when you saw a hand reach out from behind you and lighting a fire on front of your face. Standing there a little puzzled, you turned around, only to see Sanzu standing there, with a face mask on, piercing eyes and with a lighter in his hands. Oh right, Kakucho told me, he would patrol the area. He must have seen me and noticed me looking for a lighter again. 

You grab your cigarette off the ground and lift yourself up again, to light it and thank him, when you notice the lighter he was holding up to your face. It looks familiar. It was a white lighter with some drawing or letters on it. Huh? It looks like the lighter you decorated yourself and drew a silly doodle of a dragon on and scribbled 'pocket dragon' underneath the doodle with some marker. When you lit your cigarette and he wanted to put the lighter away, it dawned on you.

That's my lighter!! I knew it!! Why does he have my lighter? I loved this one because it was just so silly.

"Why do you have my lighter?" You blew the smoke out and looked at him with a questioning expression on your face. "That's yours?" He looked just as puzzled as you, furrowing his eyebrows while he responded. "Yeah, that's mine. Why do YOU have it?" It's kind of getting ridicioulos, so you have to oppress an upcoming chuckle. He noticed it and you could see small lines gracing his icy blue eyes, indicating he was smiling as well underneath his black face mask.

"I saw it laying on the ground a few weeks back and found it funny, so i kept it. Would I have known little miss smart-mouth had lost it, I would have thrown it away for your audacity to talk back to me and be mean." His eyes were getting smaller and you could tell his smirk was getting bigger, even though you couldn't see it. In contrast to what he just said, he placed the lighter back in his pocket and went on to ask you if everything went smoothly today. You join his strut towards the place Kakucho parked before and walk a little behind him, so you could see him at all times, if he tried to make moves again or some shit.

"Good. At first I was scared but it was just like in the good old days, so it kinda went by itself and I knew what I had to do." He turned his head back, which made you a little uneasy and your breath hitched, already dreading what he wanted to say. To your surprise he just locked eyes with you and stated "Perfect.". He then turned around his head and continued walking towards the point where we would have to cross the street, you behind him like a puppy following his owner.

You followed his steps across the street and saw the black Mustang parked a few metres down the road as you walk towards it. Upon opening the car door to the backseat you were greeted by Kakucho looking at you and Sanzu entering at the same time on the passenger seat.

"All good?" was all Kakucho said when he started the car and drove off.