ALIVE | bonten x reader

𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟠𝟝 - 𝒈𝒍𝒂𝒅 ☁️

He was standing in front of you with his mouth agape, while you couldn't grasp what was happening. You stood there looking into eachothers eyes for what seemed like an eternity, relief washing over him as he studied your face, every inch, every wrinkle, every pore of your skin, standing in front of him, very much alive. Before you opened the door, you were thinking about calling Kakucho to tell him everything you knew so far, to make a plan to take down Hanma, and get Kazutora freed from his duty of breaking the law just to save someone important to him. Because you would want someone to do the same for you.

Almost as if you two broke free from the invisible ties that held you where you stood, at the same time you both took a big step towards each other and he hurriedly wrapped his arms around your body. The warmth of his body enveloped you as he embraced you in a tight hug, not letting you go even in the slightest. He held you tighter and you felt his body tremble, as you returned his tight hold and you could feel the heat prickling in your eyes, a stinging pain shooting through them, and you couldn't hold the tears that were about to fall down.

„You're alive.", he whispered into your hair as he pulled away, taking your face into his hands, „...you're- you're alive.", he repeated over and over again, with his glassy eyes, looking back at your tear stained cheeks, your eyes and your lips. You cried so much in the last month, that you didn't even think it would be possible to form any tears anymore. But you did, because you were so glad, that he was not a vision, not a ghost, but his real self standing in front of you, holding you, skin to skin. „I'm-..", you tried to talk but there were only sobs coming out of your mouth, as you brought your hand up to his face.

„I heard about Noah... I c-can't believe you had to go through that..." He sniffled through the words, trying to contain his heavy panting. „I tried to call you, but you blocked me." Your voice was shaking, trying to talk to him in full sentences, not believing what you were seeing, while caressing his cheeks again and wiping away the few tears that fell. „I didn't know... Your letter... I'm so sorry. What happened? Did they hurt you?" He was resting his gaze on your eyes, as you closed them and leaned your forehead against his cheek with a bittersweet smile on your face.

„Noah did that...", you whispered to his shoulder, and sniffled before you continued, „... actually, not all of it. But most of my injuries were from Noah." He pulled your face up, and lifted your chin with his fingers and a hint of a kiss was brushed against your lips. So soft, so gentle, an apology for leaving you alone. His lips met yours, again and again and again, apologizing over and over to you.

„Liam... you can't stay. You need to leave.", your voice was but a hint of nothing as you spoke to his lips in between kisses, „You're in danger if you stay here." His lips turned into a thin line when he rested his forehead against yours, trying to hold back more tears at the thought of losing you again. And maybe forever. „I can't go. I can't leave you alone again. I- I just can't.", he whispered with a slight bitterness showing in his voice.

„You need to. If- If they find out you have any connection to me... you're in danger... something could happen... like with Noah..."-„What could happen in the worst case? Huh? I lose you again? Either by you dying or by dying myself?", he bitterly stated at your request of him leaving, so he couldn't be associated with you. „You could get hurt, Liam! I can't bear losing you. Not again. If it's the last thing I'm going to do - I'm going to save YOU for once." You were pressing your lips together in frustration, thinking about the nightmare you had while you were at the hospital, being reminded of him saving you over and over but you, not being able to save him even once.

He left the trails of more kisses on your face, kissing away the tears from your cheeks, kissing your lips more hungrily than before and you wrapped your hands around his neck, pulling him in closer, deepening the desperate lips longing for each other. „I'm serious, Liam... You need to go. I don't want anything to happen to you..", your voice was trying to convince him, and yourself that it was the best thing if he left right now. But you didn't want it. You didn't want him to leave, and he didn't want to leave either.

„I'm not leaving you right now. Not after all those years of waiting.", he chuckled roughly against your lips, before he pressed a gentle kiss on your forehead. „I can't wait any longer. I can't take it anymore. No matter the consequences. Give me just this one time... then I'll leave, I promise.", he pleaded with a brittle voice while fighting his own tears. „You don't have to wait any longer...", was all you could get out through sniffing against his skin. „...but please keep your distance after today." Your tone of voice got more desperate, the longer you felt him, still wrapped around your body.

Your lips crashed together, creating a wave of relief, sorrow and guilt washing over you, eliminating the little distance that still lingered between you both. You pulled him inside your apartment, closing the door with a swift move of your foot, and the light thud echoing through the noise of your own thoughts, or what was left of them. With your hands tugging at his shirt, crumbling up the fabric, kissing him more intense than ever, he wrapped his hands around your waist, whirling around and sitting you down on the kitchen island as his whisper sent a shiver down your spine.

„Please let me have you. I want you more than anything else in my life..", he wiped away a tear from your cheek as he continued, „.. I love you-... more than anything you could ever imagine." You pressed your eyes shut, squeezing the last drops of water you had in your body through your lashes and let him lay you down on your back, peppering kisses down your neck and collarbone. You gave into his touches as he climbed on top of you and you both eased your broken hearts by every bit of skin that created the lightning of feelings that erupted between you.

It was just like you dreamt it to be, to be devoured by pure love, pure trust and falling in love all over again like you never did before. He was pushing all the buttons you never imagined someone to, you never imagined to feel only bliss as you were making love in a way no one had prepared it could feel like for you. It was truly feeling love in it's purest form, exploding in your body as you both were still entangled to each other, panting heavily.

„So...", he whispered out and rested his soft gaze on your eyes. „...If that's what heaven feels like,.. I'm not afraid of death anymore." A gentle brush of a kiss swiped your forehead as a heavy sigh left your lips.