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𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟛𝟜 - 𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔

When you two entered into the living room again, you went to your fridge to get a drink as well, because you knew, you haven't been hydrating yourself very well well lately, and that would certainly give you a headache tomorrow. With your ice cold coke in your hand, you let yourself fall down into the cushions a few inches from where Kakucho was sitting and resting his head on the backrest of the couch. 

While talking and drinking, your phone lit up a few times, but you didn't pay attention to it, since you knew the texts were from Noah and you wanted return his attitude and give him a taste of his own medicine of ignoring him for a few hours at least. Although you wanted to talk to him, you resisted and let your phone sit on the table, not even looking at his texts. Until Kakucho excused himself to go to the bathroom. You waited for him to enter, until you grabbed your phone and read Noah's texts.

Babe <3; 10.33 pm

>>"We need to talk..."

Yeah, no shit...

Babe <3; 10.55 pm

>>"Come on, I really need to talk to you..."

FUCK OFF... 

You rolled your eyes and read further.

Babe <3; 11.13 pm

>>"I know what you are doing, y/n. Stop it and text me back."

That's certainly what I'm NOT going to do.

You heard Kakucho washing his hands, the water was running, and you wanted to read Noah's other texts, but suddenly you were startled by an incoming call. The phone in your hand started vibrating and as you read his name, you were not sure what to do.

Should I answer? Maybe we really need to talk.. He never called me from abroad until now...

You hesitated until the call stopped and you decided to let it be, with not texting back and not calling back either. He needs to know that he hurt you, when he didn't have only a few minutes, when you had something to tell him. You still needed to tell him, but now was not the time, you were pissed at him and he needs to feel it. 

Kakucho was still not back from the bathroom and it had been maybe ten minutes since he left. You shrugged it off, and put your phone back on the table, when it started to vibrate again. Rolling your eyes, you looked at the caller, and were not surprised to see Noah calling again.

Can't you leave me the fuck alone?!?! I'm pissed at you!!

The phone didn't stop ringing and you decided to fuck it, go for a smoke and talk to him. You grabbed your coat and pull out a cigarette before leaving to the balcony again, while Kakucho was still away. The door was not closed all the way, when you got out and sat down on your little chair, lit the cigarette and picked up his call.

"What the hell, Noah? Why is it, that when I needed to talk to you, you ignored me for days on end and didn't even answer my texts?" You spat out the words, getting even more angry at him as you continued to talk. "You didn't even let me know you were okay. Something could have happend to you or to me and you wouldn't even know, because it seems like you don't even care anymore..." Now your voice was showing how hurt you were, and you weren't even finished talking, when he still hadn't said a word to you. You wanted to vent and just let him know how shitty he was treating you in the last few weeks. 

"You don't even WANNA know what happened while you were away, do you?! While you were just having fun and going out with your colleagues, I wa-....." Your sentence was suddenly cut off, when he interrupted you harshly and you noticed tears running down your cheeks. 

"STOP Y/N!!" Noah almost yelled through the speaker and you stopped talking immediately. He never yelled at you. NEVER. But now? What had happened?

"I need to tell you something." 

Oh no. I know what's coming. Oh no no no no.

"I-..." He stuttered and didn't know how to put his words in order, as you struggled to keep your tears at bay.

"I don't know how to tell you this... This has never happened to me before..." You just sat there, silently, staring at nothing, as he was rambling upon his words.

"...you can be mad all you want, but I can't change it anymore. I never thought about something like this happening, so I don't really know how to approach it, but..." Now you were just getting pissed again, because he was talking and not really saying anything.

WHY is he taking so fucking long?!?!

"FOR GODS SAKE NOAH!! Just tell me already!" You were getting impatient by now, and just wanted to know what he had done. 

"Y/n... I'm really sorry... I fell in love with a colleague and cheated on you."

No. Not today. Please no. I can't handle this...

"What do you mean with 'fell in love', Noah? How long has this been going on?" You tried your best to stay composed and not let your feelings out just yet. Even if the tears started making their way down your face again, and your hands were shaky, barely even holding onto the phone anymore.

"I don't know exactly... She had my attention ever since she started working there and slowly we got closer and closer. She also was on the last work trip and is on this one as well. I know I can't make it up to you, so I understand if you hate me right now." His voice sounded a little defeated, but you didn't care. It was his own fault. You hated him right now. You really hated him so much. 

And then the hatred and rage took over you, when you started talking again. You weren't really talking, you were screaming. Now you didn't have anyone left. Liam left you, and Noah did too. No, worse. Noah CHEATED on you. And you were leaving him right now.

"You know what, Noah? FUCK YOU! I knew something wasn't right the last months. I FUCKING knew it!!! I swear to god, if you come home, and I see you - I WILL RIP YOU INTO FUCKING PIECES, you ASSHOLE!" You were yelling, even though your voice was shaky and you were sobbing through your words. 

"Y/N..." - "NO! When you get back, you will get your stuff and GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY APARTMENT! You won't see me EVER again!! Text me when you want to get your shit and then TAKE YOUR THINGS AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!" 

You didn't even wait for him to start talking again and just hung up the phone in your fit of rage, when a sudden voice interrupted your sobs.

"Y/n... What happened?" a soft voice called out to you.

Kakucho was standing in the, now open, doorway looking at your crouched down form, shivering in the cold winter air, ruined makeup from crying with a pitying expression on his face.