Stella pov.
I sit in my room listening to my parents scream and yell at each other like they always do i don't remember a time when they aren't auguring about something its been that way since i was 12 when my dad first cheated on my mom but she forgave him and here we are now 5 years down the road and they still fight about it. Sometimes that im even here i think i spend all the time in my room its the only place im safe from all the stuff that goes on in this fucked up house.
******************Later that day******************************
I was sitting in my room like usual until i heard a knock on my bedroom door so i turned down my music and went and opened my door and my mom stood there with a blank look on her face and Stella honey will you come down stairs me and your father have to tell you something important. I just shook my head yes and walked into the living room sitting on the sofa across from where my parents are now standing and sit quietly until my parents were ready to talk my dad started by saying Stella we just want you to know none of this is your fault and we love you but me and your mom are getting divorced and i just sat there silent having no clue what to say i wanted to be mad at them for doing this but i knew myself it was for the best. My mom then said Stella me and you were moving out we will start packing tomorrow so the quicker we can get out of here were going to go stay in Sydney with my sister for a bit and you will switch schools and everything i just said okay as i stood up and made my way upstairs to my room to began to pack some of my stuff up so i wouldn't have so much to do tomorrow.
When i got back to my room i shut my door turning my music back up and sitting on my bed and i just started crying i don't why but the tears just started falling i then ran to my personal bathroom and looked in the mirror at myself i looked ridiculous with mascar streaks running down my face i can't believe this is happening were actually moving out im moving all the way to Sydney. I then just sit in the floor as Hell above by pierce the veil filled the room as i just cried.
I cannot spend another night in this home
I close my eyes and take a breath real slow
The consequence is if I leave I'm alone
But what's the difference when you beg for love?
As I run through glass in the street
Kerosene hearts carry the name that my father gave me
And take the face of the wolf
'Cause this is a wasteland, my only retreat
With heaven above you, there's hell over me
I met a girl who never looked so alone
Like sugar water in your mouth lukewarm
She tied a cherry stem for me with her tongue
We fell in love and now we're both alone
'Cause I don't need any more friends
And another kiss like a fire on pavement
We'll burn it down till the end
Oh, oh
This is a wasteland, my only retreat
With heaven above you, there's hell over me
The water is rusted, the air is unclean.
And there for a second I feel free
This is a wasteland, my only retreat
I've waited all this night to honor you and say,
"I know it's hard, but who are you to fall apart on me, on me?"
This is a wasteland, my only retreat
With heaven above you, there's hell over me
'Cause this is a wasteland, my only retreat
With heaven above you, there's hell over me
You said what about us, well, what about me?
Hang from the gallows asleep in the rain
'Cause this is a wasteland, my only retreat
Paralyze me
Don't let me jump, don't let me fall
I woke up the next morning laying in my bedroom floor as i rubbed my eyes sitting up stretching before standing up and walking down stairs to a surprisingly quite kitchen were my mom sit drinking her coffee and on the phone with who i assumed to be my aunt Anna. I just went on my way just getting my self a cup of orange juice and heading back to my room before my mom yelled Stella honey do you have most of your things packed because Ashton will be here with a car to take back so we don't have so much in our car. I just said okay and made my way back to my room.
I was then in my room for awhile just listening to blink 182 till i heard my mom scream STELLA ASHTON IS HERE i then swung my door open and ran down the stairs and screamed ASH i ran to him give him a hug he then smiled and said Stel i haven't seen you in like forever i said i know since Christmas. He then said well lets go get your stuff shall we i said okay as we ran up the stairs to my room were blink was still playing and Ash just said well someone has a great music taste i said thanks as i grabbed a couple boxs and took them out to his car and what we couldn't fit in his car we put in my moms car. But i forgot one thing in the house but something i didnt want mom or Ash to see so before we left i told them i left something and ran back in the house to my bath and there under my sink was my little black box that held my blades in it i grabbed it and started to walk out of the bathroom only to run into Ash he just said Stel what is that i just said nothing as i put it in my bag that i had thrown over my shoulder and tried to walk by him but he wouldn't let me he said Stel just tell me i promise i won't tell anyone i then just let out a groan and said its razor blades Ash but please don't freak out okay. He just Stel listen to me okay your better than that and im here for you if you need me ever okay i just said okay as Ash pulled me into a hug and said i think we should get going before your mom comes in here after us. I said okay as i pulled away from his hug and run down the stairs out to the car where i asked my mom if i could ride with Ash she smiled and said yes Stella and i will see you when we get to Anna's i said okay as i got in Ashs car shutting the door.
We were in the car maybe a hour when we got there my mom was already there talking to Anna i got out of the car going to the back getting out some of my stuff in the house only to have Ash tell me that we could get it later and thats when Harry and Lauren coming running out of the house yelling STELLA i just pulled them both into a hug and said god i missed you guys so much and they both said we missed you to stella. They then pulled away from the hug only to have Lauren grab my hand pulling me into the house as she said Stella your sharing a room with me i already cleaned closet space out for you and a place for all of your stuff. I said aww thats sweet of you Lauren. She then said lets go get your stuff then we can get my mom to order pizza or something i said okay as i made my way out the room out to the car where Ash had already started getting some of my stuff out his car and bringing it in for me.
After we got all of our stuff un packed in the house i layed in Laurens bedroom floor with her beside me and a box of pizza between us as we watched perks of being a wallflower together. Then after the movie ended i cleaned up our mess from our pizza and woke Lauren up who fell asleep during the movie. After i had everything cleaned up i went and crawled in the bed that Lauren had set up from me across from hers. I laid there in the bed on my phone scrolling through Instagram till i eventually fell asleep.
** i attached a picture of stella who is alexandra daddario **
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To be alone with you
FanfictionStella was used to always being alone every since she was little till she moves to a new town were she meets calum hood and both of there lifes are changed for the better all thanks to one simple encounter between a lonely girl and a shy boy.
