To be alone with you

Chapter 22

** a week later **

Ashton pov

We all sit back in the same office from the week before at this point we had all decided that were going to go on the tour and as we sit there Zach stood up saying so boys are you going and we all nodded saying yes he then smiled saying you leave in three days be ready by then and we will send a car to take you to the airport and pick you up have fun guys see you next go around we then all said thanks as we walked out the door making our way straight to the car heading over to the hospital like every day we go to school sometimes then go spend the rest of the time with stel praying she will wake up soon.

Calums pov

i sit in stels room alone like always but this time i had my guitar with me deciding that today i was going to sing to her because she use to tell me how much she loved when i sang so i picked up my guitar starting to play the reason by hoobstank

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is You

and the reason is You

and the reason is You

and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

I then grabbed finished laying my guitar down then grabbing her hand in mine before resting my head on her bed drifting off to sleep beside her.

Ashtons pov

I walked into stels room to see Cal asleep holding her hand i didnt want to disturb him but we need to get stuff packed we leave soon just two days now and we can't spend it not getting ready i'm already packed and ready to go but the rest of the boys is a different story Cal has been with Stel and Luke , Michael have been with Iris and me i've been rushing getting things ready so i decided to turn walking out the room leaving cal sleeping there he can get his stuff ready tomorrow.

*****

It's later that week we are all packed up and we said our goodbyes to stel that morning not like she heard us or anything. I just hurts knowing were leaving her in sydney while we get to go live our dream she's holding on for dear life only surviving by the machines attached to.

Iris pov

I stand at the airport with all the boy around me wishing stel was with me to send these four idiots off but instead it's me holding back tears as they all walk off to board the airplane and i don't know how i feel being left here alone with my best friend in a coma.

The boys have been gone for four days now i've skyped all of them every night cal asks to see Stella and things are not changing for the better with stel she's just lying there her vitals are getting a little better the doctor says but honestly idk she's still pale still attached to machines and she literally almost died yesterday she flatlined and i was scared to death i could have lost her but the doctors stabilized her again and she's now breathing a little better but honestly i barely sleep anymore i'm afraid i will wake up she will be gone for good and i can't take that losing my best friend. I was then snapped out of my thoughts by Elizabeth saying iris hun you need to go home and get some rest and please eat love you havent eaten in ages i just mumbled but i can't no i can't leave stella she then walked over to me grabbing my hand saying listen we will be here and will let you know if anything changes i promise i just said okay standing up and hugging her and she said now please go home get some rest , eat and take a hot shower then you can come back okay? i just nodded before walking out the door.

When i finally got home i walked right by Lou who was sitting on the sofa with some girl i then rolled my eyes continuing upstairs to my room walking to the shower turning on the hot water before turning on my playlist letting Talk me down by troye sivan fill the small bathroom

I wanna sleep next to you

But that's all I wanna do right now

And I wanna come home to you

But home is just a room full of my safest sounds

Cause you know that I can't trust myself and my 3AM shadow

I'd rather fuel a fantasy than deal with this alone

I wanna sleep next to you

But that's all I wanna do right now

So come over now and talk me down

I wanna hold hands with you

But that's all I wanna do right now

And I wanna get close to you

Cause your hands and lips still know their way around

And I know I like to draw at night; it starts to get surreal

But the less time that I spend with you, the less you need to heal

I wanna sleep next to you

But that's all I wanna do right now

So come over now and talk me down

Talk me down

So if you don't mind, I'll walk that line

Stuck on the bridge between us

Gray areas and expectations

But I'm not the one if we're honest, yeah

But I wanna sleep next to you

And I wanna come home to you

I wanna hold hands with you

I wanna be close to you

But I wanna sleep next to you

And that's all I wanna do right now

And I wanna come home to you

But home is just a room full of my safest sounds

So come over now and talk me down

Talk me down

a/n

i added the reason to chapter cause its a really important song for this book but anyways i feel like this book is a failure honestly no one is even reading it so i may rush end it cause its not like anyone cares 

all the love - ash