To be alone with you

Chapter 20

** Trigger warning **

I put the song that theb whole book was named after on the top cause i thought it was  apporaite time to put it in the story so yea grab some tissues and enjoy. 

Later that week i had just kept skipping school cause i couldn't stand to go and see Calum happy with Diana i had went the totally of 2 days out of 5 and now it's a sad friday afternoon no one is home and i sit in my bathroom with blades pills and the tub running full of water all my thoughts were scattered i had finished my notes one addressed to each of the boys and Iris. I then without thinking stepped into the freezing water with the blades and pills in my hand i then took the blade dragging it across my wrist making deeper cuts than i ever had before watching the dark red blood drip down into the clear water staining it with a slight red i then took the mix of pills before submerging myself in the water and that's when everything went dark.

Ashtons pov

I came in from school that day the house was quiet and empty only thing i could hear was music playing from upstairs knowing it was stel so i didn't pay much mind to it walking up the stairs yelling for stel but she didn't come out her room so i went to her room she wasn't there and that's when i seen the light to the bathroom attached to her room was on i then ran opening the door and my heart dropped when i opened to see her there submerged in water that was tainted red and i that's when i heard the rest of the guys walk in downstairs screaming for me and i just yelled CALL A AMBULANCE as i grabbed stel out the water she was pale and cold as ice i then started to cry as she laid there limp in my arms the rest of the boys filed into the room along with Iris and she started sobbing as soon as she seen stel lying there Luke then wrapped his arm around her pulling her close as she wept into him. When the ambulance finally got there everyone was crying and no one yet to call our moms to tell them so i told cal who crying into Diana's shoulder to ride with Stel in the ambulance as i called my aunt elizabeth the phone rung for a while till she finally picked up and as soon as she did i said aunt elizabeth come quick please stel she's not okay there taking her to the hospital as we speak she then said i will meet you there ash and i could tell she was holding back tears and i then said i love you talk to you later she said it back before hanging up i then put my phone in my pocket still in my blood stained jumper i ran downstairs grabbing the keys to my car and told Luke and the others to come on but they still stood in Stels room with papers in there hands and crying and each had one of the papers had our names scribbled across the top in stels handwriting and instead of opening it then and there i just stuck it in my pocket and walking out to the car with the others slowly behind me.

When we got to the hospital i seen calum sitting against the walls with his knees up and his laid on them i literally ran over to him saying have they said anything yet ? He just shook his head no and mumbled i'm sorry ash i then said this isn't your fault no one could have stopped this from happening she was in a sad and dark place. I then walked away from cal sitting alone in one of the chairs staring down at the paper that had written on the top To: Ash aka the best cousin in the world, I then opened the paper up and started to read

Dear , Ash

If you're reading this it means you have came in from school and found me and i just want to let you know that i love you more than anything you really are the best cousin in the world, I just wish things could have been different not like this but hey some things are just destined to be right like you used to say all the time when we were younger " The most important thing is to enjoy your life to be happy it's all that matters " and see i wasn't happy anymore so what was the point of living anymore i'm sorry that it had to happen this way i love you ash don't be sad that i'm gone it's better this way.