Broken

Chapter Ten

The bags under my eyes are becoming more visible. I need sleep but how can I sleep when all I see is that day. I just wanted to sleep for at least an hour I took the sleeping drugs but that didn't work it just made matters worse.

It's three in the morning and I have not slept a wink as yet. I lay in my bed staring at the plaster on the ceiling hoping the little design would put me to sleep. I have had sleepless nights and I go through this agony multiple times. My eyelids slowly close this is it at last.

The sound of metal crashing and screaming woke me. My face wet from perspiration, my hair a tangled mess and my hands gripping the sheet. I was at the edge of insanity normal people would ask for help but I couldn't it was my fault what happened. I looked at the time minutes to four. Sleep wasn't going to come my way again just once a night. I had a diagram to draw for Biology and a molecule to make for Chemistry might as well I get started.

For the Chemistry maybe I could make a 3 dimensional project using straws and clay and paint it. That's a good idea, but I had no clay with me now. I started on the diagrams for Biology and they looked amazing. When I looked at the time it was thirty minutes after six and the sun still hasn't come out to give me any hope. I got out on the balcony the street was empty maybe I could go for a short jog.

"Yes, that sounds good a jog." I said out loud to myself. I got my jogging suit and was out the door. I never really got a look around the community so this is the time now. I took a break and started to walk it wasn't as dingy as I thought it was it was more like a middle class community. I turned around and there he was in all his glory my stomach ached and my lips trembled. He was in baggy shorts and his skin was covered in his own perspiration. My heart might fall out of my chest.

He spotted me and I tried to dodge him but my short legs against his long ones were just unfair. He was now beside me and his sweet was actually glistening.

"Hey." He smiled down at me and I walked even faster. "Daniella are you still mad about our kiss?" he asked but I still ignored him. I wasn't upset about our kissing I actually enjoyed it. He held on to my arm and I looked up at him.

"Andre what do you want?" I snapped at him.

"I'm sorry about kissing you? But, I just couldn't take the urge." He admitted he looked down at me and it seemed like I was hypnotized by his green was like he saw into my soul. He entwined our fingers and it felt right like our hands belonged together. His other hand caressed my face and cupped it. Please kiss me Andre. I thought. I grabbed his shoulders and brought his lips down on mine. His lips molded mine and it felt like all my problems have disappeared in this moment. He pulled me closer and I tangled my fingers in his hair and he tugged on my ponytail. My lungs burnt but so what this was amazing. A honking pulled us apart he looked at me with bewilderment and a smile.

"I broke it off with Tizzy." He said taking a deep breath.

"You killed the mood. I hope you didn't do that for me." I was about to walk away.

"So do you want to go on a date?" he asked, but I just wasn't going to cave.

"No." I smiled and walked from him.

"Why not?" he trudged behind me.

"You get girls easy and I don't want that weirdness between you, Maria and I." I explained to him.

"Yes I am well aware of Maria but I tried to fight the feelings for you but its hard when all I see is you." I turned to look at him and he looked tortured. I wanted to say yes but I just couldn't and I felt the same towards him.

We were now in front of my house now and I was trying to avoid eye contact with him. I'm trying to resist from saying yes and I am walking danger zone. He tilted my head upwards to look at his green eyes. "Please?" he begged and I felt something in me bend.

"I can't." I pulled my face away and ran inside.

The Saturday looked hopeful the sun was coming out for the first time since I have been here. Maybe I'll spend the day at the pool. I looked over at the Hill's house and I kept thinking about Andre and this morning.

The television was replaced and mom didn't bother coming home because she was caught up for real this time. The television was playing a Nicholas Sparks movies and The Lucky One was now playing I'm a huge fan of sappy love stories even though Nicholas Sparks has tragic ending. I sat there surrounded by my selection of tooth decaying, archery clogging food just how I like my television type.

I was halfway through A Walk To Remember and the doorbell rung. I sighed and reluctantly put down my sticky sweets on the sofa I walked to the door trying not to miss the movie. I opened the door and found the girls standing in swim suits.

"We're going to the beach." Maria smiled broadly.

"That's good I guess, enjoy." I smiled back.

"Go get your swim suit." They ordered.

"I'm kind of busy today." I said lamely.

"You're not your just going to sit and watch television." They weren't lying maybe it wasn't a bad idea.

"I cave. Come on in." I ushered them in.

I climbed the stairs to my room I searched for the perfect swim suit and put it on and put baggy clothes over it. I got my towel and all the necessities for the beach and I was ready.

I walked down the stairs and the girls had made themselves at home, eating my movie food.

"We can't go now, it's raining." Maria said sadly as I came down the stairs.

"What we going to do now?" Anna asked.

"You could stay and pig out in front of my television." I offered. They looked at each other as if speaking silently telepathically to each other.

"Yes." The said in unison with big grins.