Killer Kings

Chapter 16: Loving Strength and Fun Games

Stu had reluctantly left to go get the party ready like I told him to, leaving me with an anger ridden and worried Billy. The plans are going on unchanged, much to the boys worry and concern for my mental health.

Billy had sent me up to take a shower and allow me time to fully process everything. He said he'd clean up the literal carnage that I had caused on my mother, and I have no idea what he did with the bodies, nor do I care to know.

Why do I always get the short end of the sticks...am I really that unlucky, or am I really just that jinxed?

My mother is officially dead to me just like the demons of my past with Billy and Stu being the lights to my future. They've been there for me in ways that literally no one else has, and I didn't think I could love them more than I already do, but I can. I'm going to follow them into the gates of hell and never look back.

I will never leave them no matter what, and I'll kill anyone who hurts them. I'll burn and live for them.

I'd looked at my back, moving my hair to see what Stu had cut into me, and I nearly cry again at the sight. Stu's Dollface is across my shoulder blades, and it warms my heart as I look between it and Billy's Babygirl on my collarbone. They make me feel cherished and loved like never before, and they protected me from Ronnie, something no one has ever done for me.

They protected me from the demons, the monsters. They protected me...I love them with my very soul.

I will follow them anywhere until my dying breath, and nothing and no one will ever change my mind. I'm utterly devoted to them, and I will do anything for them. They ask me to set the world on fire, I will. They ask me to kill someone, I will. Ask me to torment a person, I will. They ask me to die for them, I will. They ask me to live for them, and I fucking will.

I am theirs for all eternity, and even beyond that.

I am full heartedly, unconditionally in love with them. My soul bleeds for them, and theirs bleeds for me. I ask them to jump, they jump. I ask them to fight, they fight. I ask them to love me, they shower me in kisses and utter adoration. I ask them to kill for me, and they do. They bleed and live for me as I do them.

We are one for all eternity, and no one will ever change that.

Our love is so strong that I don't think anything could keep us apart, not even death itself. I never expected to be this happy in my broken and shit life, but I am. I'm so goddamn happy when I'm with them that it scares me sometimes. I have no idea what I'd exactly do if I lost them, but I know that I'd make the entire world pay for that loss.

Everyone would feel my rage if I lost them. It would destroy me in ways I can't express.

"They are mine, and I am theirs. No questions asked. Full heartedly, unconditionally together forever." I say softly to myself as I look at my freshly clean body in the mirror. I look at the knife that's stabbed into the pillow on my bed before grabbing it and walking back over to the mirror. I stare at myself before bringing the blade to my hip on my right side.

I don't even feel the pain as I cut into my skin, carving it as the letters start to drip blood, the drops hitting my floor. Most people get tattoos, but I don't want tattoos that can fade away with time. I want the words to be carved and scarred onto my skin just as they have been in my soul.

I pull the knife away when I'm done and use the towel to wipe away the blood as I look at my new marking. "My strength and my love. They're my killers and I'm theirs." The words lead from my hip, going down towards my thigh, and I smile at them as I think of my boys.

"You're so beautiful, Maxine Harper." Billy says, and I look at him in the mirror as he leans in my doorway. He looks down and sees the words, a rare loving smile pulling at his lips as he walks over to me. Crouching down, he kisses each word softly, which is something new from him, but it makes my heart swell all the same. "We love you more than words can express."