She slowly regains her sense of comfort and hugs him softly
Yoongi keeps counting from 1 to 12 and from 12 to 1
She slowly regains her peace of mind and sense of knowledge of where she is then hugs him tightly, burying her face deep into his neck "My Hyungie"
He chuckles "Yeah"
"Thank you"
"Of course. Are you good now??"
"Yeah. I just got triggered"
"What triggered you??"
"Me accidentally kicking you"
Yoongi tilts his neck over and she smells him deeply then smiles widely
"You don't have to worry about kicking me. I know you can't help it. But, you don't have to worry about kicking me. Any of us really"
She smiles again "Okay. Thanks, Hyungie!!"
"Of course"
"You can sit back down now"
He nods and does as told
Jimin sits back in the seat while Yoongi sits fully on the ground with crossed legs
"Can you tell me now??" She asks curious
Yoongi pulls on another black glove and gets back to work "Tell you what??"
"About your voice. You don't have to!! I'm just curious!!" She quickly says
"Fine but what I tell you stays between us. They don't even they know everything about it"
She nods quickly "I promise promise!!"
He nods while opening a roll of black tape then shaking his head, setting the barely opened package down, picks up an unopened package of gauze and starts opening it "I have a similar back story to yours. I always got yelled at and abused when I spoke or did anything. However, I wasn't lying when I said it was both. I was born mute. I even got told that when I was born and didn't cry; the doctors smacked my feet. I apparently opened my mouth but no sound came out. I was in speech class all through my grade school years. But, I eventually got kicked out for quote unquote not taking it seriously. But, how could I?? Every time I spoke outside of school; I got into trouble. My muteness started out as selective. Only really talking at school. But, it became full when I would get in trouble for talking there too. All I wanted to do was ask the teacher questions but that didn't work. They told on me and I got into more trouble. Over time, my vocal cords ran down and I just stopped being able to use them. Now that I can, I need more water but I can't let Jin down. I just can't. He's done so much and no"
Jimin softly taps his head in a pattern that's equal to 12
He shifts to better access to Jimin's left foot, calms down and nods "So I can't talk without him present. You can. I just won't. I can't. I can't bring myself to. I asked for his help. I can't let him down. Yes, he'll be happy but I'll be able to tell that underneath he's hurt. That will lead him to push me away and not want anything to do with me. I can't lose my only Hyung. If it was anyone else, I wouldn't care. But not. Not him. Never him"
Jimin nods "I understand, Hyungie. I'm the same way with Tae and Kook. With everything they have done for me; it seems like I'm the youngest"
Yoongi removes Jimin's left sock "Yeah. That's why he and I are so close. We've always been seen as younger than Joon just because he and I work in slience. We will even get up before the others and make breakfast together. We make dinner together, too. I don't think he knows how much that actually means to me, you know?? It's our time together. Just the two of us. Yes, it's slient and neither of us really talk to each other in general because well" Yoongi sighs "I burden him too much. He is the main reason as to why I have wanted to get my voice back. He knew me before all of this. He has witness everything. He has done more than them. Especially in regards to my voice. He is the one who took sign classes with me so I wouldn't be alone. He learned code before me just to teach me. He's my teacher. He's always been my teacher. I can't let him down by letting him think that everything was a lie or something. It's not and it wasn't. I really did want his help. I didn't count on you helping in ways he couldn't. Don't. Don't get me wrong. I love that you where able to help. I really, really am. But, all I can think about is how to tell him. I don't. I can't. I won't lie to him. But, how can I tell him??"
Jimin nods "That's been going through my mind too. Ever since it happened. I've been thinking about letting Tae and Kook down. I'm the same way you are to him. We've been through everything together. I just don't know to tell them. They're already going to be upset that I got hurt. They're so over protective of them and I of them. I don't know what to do, Hyung. I can't let them down"
Yoongi pulls on Jimin's right shoes then left "Yeah. We need to figure it out, though. Neither of us can lie to the ones who raised us. It's not Jin I'm thinking about. I'm thinking about the others, too. He's just the main one"
Jimin nods "That must be hard. You're not the oldest but you're always seen that way or younger than Joonie"
"It is. It's why I lean on him so much. He's our leader. He's seen as the oldest. But, I know it's hard for him. He's the youngest. Always being in the spotlight and having everything blamed on him is very hard. I know that first hand"
She nods "Than what about Sunny??"
Yoongi stands up and walks back to the trunk, taps it four times, opens it, slides the case in and shuts the trunk again, tapping it four more times before sitting in front of Jimin again "Hobie" He sighs "He's our biggest fan and because of that, he shares the pain of being the oldest with Joonie. We got forced to take a step back and let them shine when our project started. Jin and I are the heads. They took care of everything else. Everything fell on them. All we really did was build"
"Y'all's friendship is" Jimin sighs "I can't tell who's stronger. You, Jin, Hobi or Joon. All four of you are too strong for your own well being"
"You're one to talk. I've seen your life"
She sighs "I forgot about that"
Yoongi nods softly
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A Dancer's Life
Fanfiction*This will be a shared AU between here and my Twitter* *Gender bent AU!! Jimin is female!!* *This has mentions of abuse, eating disorders and depicts violence* 𝑾𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒇 𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒕, 𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒆𝒆𝒕𝒔 𝒂 𝑴𝒖𝒕𝒆 𝒅𝒂�...
