Can You Chase Away The Darkness - Fuenciado

Chapter Four

Jaime's POV:

We'd been touring for a week now, with tonight being our first night off. But the night off wasn't the only thing on my mind. Maybe I was being paranoid or just a girl, but Vic was acting strange. At first it was with everyone, but now it had bubbled down to just me. I wasn't the only who had noticed it, Tony had asked about it - but I had nothing add.

Had he noticed my feelings for him? Things that had been normal before with us, like getting changed in front of each other, were now awkward. And on top of that, he was avoiding me. I tried to act as normal as possible, I even tried getting Tony on side to scoop out the problem.

I knew I didn't stand a chance, that's why I had never brought it up. He didn't need to feel awkward around me, I had been dealing with the fact that we would never be together for months now.

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We arrived at a club, I hoped we could forget about the whole awkwardness between us even for a night, but Vic couldn't even stand to stand with me for five minutes, instead he scurried off and stood with Mike and Tony. Stupidly, I decided to drink away my emotions. One shot went to the fact that I could never be with the man I loved, the second went to the friendship I had ruined and the many drinks in between went to how much of an idiot I was.

I tried to keep away from Vic as much as possible, even despite that he sat looking down. Making awkward eye contact with me every couple of minutes. Mike dragged me to the dance floor with him, he always seemed to feel the need to dance when drunk. Before I knew it, he had reeled in some blonde chick with a brunette friend. The friend which I immediately inherited when Mike and the girl split apart from us.

"Hey I'm Beth" she said into my ear.

"Jaime" I replied, then took a long drink from my cup.

Maybe it was the drink talking or maybe it was the desperation to get my friend back, but for about ten minutes it seemed like a good idea to hook up with this girl. My plan being that if Vic seen me with this girl, he wouldn't worry about me having feelings for him anymore. After some small talk, I had my arms around her waist, flirting as well as a drunk man could. I looked around every so often, just checking Vic was watching. Until around the fifth or sixth time I checked, he was gone.

I got a slurred explanation from Tony that really made no sense. So I decided to text him, stupidly I began to worry. The idea of Vic being alone in that city tonight, sure he was a big boy - older than all of us - but he was also shorter, skinnier and too nice for a place like this.

I sent my text, adding an unsure x at the end. Usually we would joke around sending ten x's at a time, but due to the current circumstances I hedged my bets.

By the time I had done all this, including talking to Tony the girl I had been talking to was already half way across the club with some other guy. I found it hard to care, the only one I wanted to be with wasn't here nor did he care about being with me.

You've gotten yourself into some pretty stupid situations, Jaime. But this one really takes the cake. How could you have feelings for your best friend?