Can You Chase Away The Darkness - Fuenciado

Chapter Ten

Jaime's POV:

I was up on stage, the place normally my other feelings didn't matter. As I heard the crowd scream the adrenaline within me started, I heard Mike begin the drums behind me and I knew that was my cue. I glanced at Tony who was completely concentrated on his notes, as Vic ran out on stage last. I completely lost my breath as he sang the first word, butterflies formed. I'd heard him sing a million times now, though this felt like the first time - he was really putting everything into it tonight. In the midst of my daydream, I had managed I play a couple of wrong notes, earning me a scolding look from Tony and a glance from Mike.

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After the show, I knew I needed to talk to Vic. I felt like I was gonna explode if I didn't soon. I found him in one of the rooms backstage, on his own, sitting on a couch. I had no idea where Mike and Tony were, I just hoped they weren't gonna interrupt us.

"Hey" I said, standing at the doorway. "Can we talk?".

He nodded, looking down at his shoes. I sat next to him on the couch, while he twiddled his thumbs.

"I'm sorry okay Hime, I don't want you to be angry at me anymore" He said, almost like a child.

My heart melted, I could never be angry at him. Above all, he was my best friend - he could murder someone and nothing would change. I pulled him into a hug, which was mostly for my own gain. He was tense as I pulled him close, I then felt him begin to relax in my arms.

"I'm not angry" I murmured. "Just confused".

He pulled away and looked at me.

"Why are you confused?" He asked.

"Because one minute we are best friends, the next you are avoiding me and then you are kissing me" I said, earning frown from him.

Before I had came in and sat with Vic, I'd sat and day dreamed about how this would go. I would tell him we needed to talk and he would agree. I would hold his hand and tell him that I was in love with him - that I probably have been ever since I met him. He would squeeze my hand and tell me that he feels exactly the same way and he wants nothing more than to be with me. He would kiss me, nothing too rough just a gentle peck and then pull away and shoot me one of his amazing smiles.

Of course, I was chasing a lost cause. He was never going to want to be with me, he was never going to love me the way I love him.

"I know, I get that I've been hard to live with recently" He mumbled, returning his focus to his shoes.

"Well why can't you just tell me what's wrong? I won't laugh or judge or get angry, c'mon Vic - you used to tell me everything" I said, sounding exasperated.

"Jaime I really can't do this right now" He said.

In the most un-self absorbed way, I began wondering, was there the small chance he liked me back? It was slim but maybe he did, I built up all the courage I had and:

"Vic I need to get some of my chest. I like you okay, more than just as a friend. In fact I think I might more than like you and you kissed me so" I knew I had began rambling, so I stopped to look at his reaction.

He looked shocked, his mouth was open and his eyes were wide. He looked as if he was searching for something to say but couldn't find anything.

"I guess I just need to know whether this can ever happen, or if I'm just chasing a lost cause" I said.

"This is a lot, um wow. Jaime I can't do this right now, I need to go" He said, leaving the room.

This is when I discovered that rejection is probably the worst feeling in the world. I hung my head, until I felt a presence in the room. I looked up to see Mike.

"What just happened? What's wrong with Vic?" He asked.

"It's a long story" I sighed.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

I nodded, "I'm fine, just go find Vic and make sure he's okay" I told him.

Well if things weren't already messed up, they definitely were now.