Can You Chase Away The Darkness - Fuenciado

Chapter Nine

Vic's POV:

I was up all night, tossing and turning. The worst part of it was, I wasn't regretting doing it or even worrying about what effect it would have on our friendship. Instead, I was thinking about how much I wanted. to do it again. How I wanted to feel that rush of adrenaline and feel that close to him.

But at the same time, I was scared - scared of my own feelings. I had tried to talk myself out of feeling what I was feeling, I had even used Mike to try and convince me I was being stupid. Everything was too real now, it had happened and all I could do was face up to the consequences.

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After possibly the worst night's sleep ever, I slid out of my bunk. I was in my boxers and whatever random shirt I found that night - like usual. I meandered to the kitchen, I had a hint of hangover but I felt well enough to still be worrying over last night. Pouring some cereal, I hummed to myself, singing the beginning to caraphernelia as I wandered to the fridge to get some milk. As someone began to rustle in the bunks, I froze. Praying to God it would be Tony or even Mike - who although who question me about last night would still be better than Jaime.

But when did praying ever work out for me?

I turned my back to the bunk area, facing our kitchen as I heard his footsteps come closer and closer.

"Vic?" I heard him say.

"Yeah?" I asked.

"I think we need to talk" He said, raising his eyebrows.

I nodded. "Look I'm sorry okay, I shouldn't have-".

I began my apology, only to be interrupted by Tony wandering in.

"What are you sorry for?" He asked.

"I uh-" I stuttered, not wanting to reveal my stupid mistake to Tony

"He stepped on my foot" Jaime said, saving the day.

Tony crooked his head to the left, "He stepped on your foot? Look at the size of him, don't be such a girl".

I held back a snigger, Tony was always so to the point. Tony was followed closely by Mike, who looked more than a little under the weather. He hung his head as he entered the kitchen, until he spotted me - I knew where this was going.

"Well big bro, how was last night?" He smirked.

I felt Jaime's stare burn into the side of my head, feeling more and more under pressure as I noticed Tony look around.

"Yeah Vic, how was last night?" Jaime said, in a cold tone.

I shrugged my shoulders, hoping they'd let it go - even though I knew they wouldn't.

"C'mon man, give us more than that" Mike said, egging me on.

I watched as Jaime walked back into the bunk area, shaking his head. Was he annoyed because we didn't get to talk?

"Nothing happened Mike" I said, turning back to the kitchen counter.

"What why?" He asked, like I had committed a crime.

I snuck a glance at Jaime, I'd felt bad I had pissed him off again.

"Vic..." Mike whispered, noticing my glance.

"I just don't know anymore, okay Mike?" I said.

How was I supposed to explain something to him that didn't even make sense to me?