The Fanboy's Star [SB19 JoshTin fanfic]

Ika dalawamput dalawang Kabanata : MOVING ON

JUSTIN

"Justin?"

"Josh..."

No one utter a word for a second after that and I wish I just had been eaten by the ground. It's our first time meeting after those two months with no communication at all. After our supposedly break up. Well, meeting him here can't be avoided but I didn't expect it would be this soon.

Josh is just wearing a beach short and flowerful polo over a white sando. He has messy hair but it didn't affect his charmingness, rather it makes him more alluring. I can't believe I'm looking at the man I missed the most.

I didn't know I'm staring too much until he spoke.

"What are you doing here?" he asked, now more softly even though confusion still visible on his eyes.

I was about to answer him when a woman whom I really recognize rushed out of the VIP room, frustratingly showed up behind him.Ms.Hong...

"Hey, why aren't you moving—"Eyebrows knitted, she peeked on who's he's looking at and stared in surprise. She smiled widely afterwards. "Oh, Justin! I see you're here now."

Josh asked shifting his gaze at Ms. Hong. "What's going on?"

"What do you mean? he's one of the participants in AtiNite, you weren't informed?"

"I didn't know," Josh muttered and looked at me again. I bowed to avoid his gaze. I can't look directly in his eyes for a long time.

"Anyways, Stell and Ken went there already right? why are you here?" she asked me walking past Josh.

Oh no. Ofcourse she'll wonder why and I don't want to sound so bitter. I don't even know how she can talk to me casually after everything that happened. I know she has an idea of what happened and what's going on between me and Josh. I wish I could act the same as her. I'm also wondering how she knows about me being part of the program and not the boys. If she knows why would she even let it, when they're the one who wants me to stay away from Josh at all.

I have a lot of questions in my mind pero alam kong hindi ko magagawang itanong. I'm still really greatful being here and experiencing this wonderful trip.

"Uh, I'm helping with the cleaning," I shyly said while smiling.

"What, you don't have to do that." Ms. Hong said. "You were invited here to enjoy, it's the staff's task."

I shake my head and wave my hand in response. "No It's fine, I don't mind at all. I really just want to help."

"Aww. But make sure to come with us as soon as possible okay?"

I nod and smiled. "Yes, I will."

"That's great!" Ms. Hong chipped.

I pretend to arrange the containers even though there's no need to do that just to avoid any further conversation while they discuss something about the trip. Ang tagal naman ni Ate Rose, hindi ko na nakakaya ang tensyon dito.

I know I'm acting really awkward and weird even though he's not doing anything. He didn't even dare to talk after that which I'm thankful about, cause I don't want the atmosphere to be more heavy than it already is. And if I act too casually Ms.Hong could probably tell Tatang Robin about this interaction, in case he doesn't know, and get me kicked out of this project anytime. And I don't wanna leave yet,I always wanna be on this project.

I can still feel his stares, piercing on my back. My breathing becoming so slow. And I don't want this feeling. It quite painful.

Nakahinga lang ako ng maluwag ng lumabas si Ate Rose sa pinto at tawagin ako. I looked and smiled at her in relief,mentally thanking her for saving me. She as if can sense I need to get away.