The Fanboy's Star [SB19 JoshTin fanfic]

Ikatatlumpu't apat na Kabanata: TELL

JUSTIN

"You have some explaining to do." Nakapamewang na sabi ni Yumi.

Nasa loob kami tent ni Yumi ngayon. May mas kalakihan ito kumpara sa mga tent namin nila Alexa at Chester kaya nagkasiya kami sa loob. We're here because I asked them if we could talk cause cause I want to clear things. What they saw is a situation you wouldn't expect to see your idol to be in as a fan.

"Anong meron?" tanong ni Chester, seems to be so clueless about what's happening and why did we have to have a close conversation.

Halos lahat ng iba sa amin ay nagsi-tulog na dahil hating gabi na rin. We're even talking in silence para hindi ito marinig ng iba.

I decided to talk to them immediately after I get back on the tent. Pagkabalik ko kanina agad akong sinalubong nila Yumi, Alexa at Chester kasama ang iba pa. They are also finding Josh. I heard from them that Josh stopped singing earlier and told them he's going to the comfort room, but never came back.

I know how confused they are right now kaya't hindi ko na gusto pang ipagpabukas ang pagpapaliwanag sa kanila.

Yumi sat beside me and soothe my back. I just noticed that my body's shaking. I'm nervous. "It's okay kung 'di mo pa kayang sabihin sa amin. Pero naguguluhan pa rin kami sa kung anong nangyayari."

I can see how worried and curious she is.

Alexa on the other hand, seems to be so quiet. Which is very unusual of her.

"Sorry, you have to see that," I apologized.

Umiling lang Yumi na parang ipinahihiwatig na okay lang. Huminga ako ng malalim at pinalakas ang aking loob. I need to tell them the truth.

"Josh Cullen...he is my ex-boyfriend."

No one speak a word for a moment. They stared at me with wide eyes and furrowed eyebrows. Mouth are open as if they couldn't process what they just heard. Na inaasahan ko naman nang reaksyon mula sa kanila. Hindi ko maiwasang kabahan sa patutunguhan nito.

"Josh... Josh Cullen? ng Sb19?" paglilinaw ni Chester.

Tumango lamang ako. Sinimulan kong magkwento mula ng maging kami hangagang sa nagkahiwalay. And the whole time I'm talking they are just staring at me, unable to speak because of disbelief and shock.

Alexa is still unexpectedly quiet even after I told them everything. But I can see in her eyes that she's shocked to.

Nakahawak naman sa ulo si Yumi at minasahi ito. "Pero wait, wait. Sabi mo recently lang ang break up. Does that mean, siya yung sinasabi mo noong nasa beach pa tayo? na someone important? the reason you're crying?"

Tumango akong muli. "Siya nga."

Napatakip na lang ng bibig si Yumi sa gulat. Kahit si Chester ay hindi na nakaimik pa. Si Alexa ay ganun pa rin.

"No way..." Yumi muttered. Yumi clicked her finger as if she remembered something. "And ano 'yung kanina? yung nakita namin ni Alexa. It looks something serious."

I bite my lips and hesitated for a sec. "Nag-usap kami at g-gusto niyang makipagbalikan..."

"Then be together again!" Chester shouted kaya mabilis na tinakpan ni Yumi ang bibig nito. He just make a peace sign. It is still in the middle of the night.

I just shook my head. "Hindi ko alam. Natatakot ako...natatakot ako na baka ikasira ng grupo nila kapag nalaman ng iba 'yung tungkol sa amin."

Maybe it's not only about people finding out, but also the thought of, will people accept us?