MADGYAL

Chapter 15: Please stfu

Vanessa
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"you nago give me no kiss no thing vanessa? a joke me didda make eno-

"BUT YOU BRING IT UP ALL THE TIME, I DONT WANT TO HAVE A BABY IM NOT READY AND THE LAST TIME WE TALKED ABOUT TOPICS LIKE THESE ME TELL YOU FI LEAVE THEM THERE. ME IS SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF YOU JUSTIN" i finally lashed out. the entire car ride everything he did made my bloodboil he was just so annoying to me. I had already sat down and told him a thousand times i didnt want a baby... i just dont want children I'll never want children and when we got together he knew this. i hated this topic coming up everytime we were around each other.

"open ih door" i yelled tugging at the handle.

"NO!" he shouted at me and my eyes widened in surprise as i looked at him baffled. first of all he just raised his voice and second of all he raised his voice and said no?

"you ago listen to wah me have fi say.... vanessa you never listen to me!!! you doh give a damn about how me feel wah me want wah me value. me a your man you claim you love me you hear me talk about children all the time me just want one! just one.... me know you told me originally seh you never wanted any kids but me did think it would change after a while. me treat yuh so well....

"me prove me self to be a man wah can work hard fi you and provide food and shelter and protection for you and a baby... me give you everything that i have thats all me want" he held my hand. i couldnt believe this man a try manipulate me into saying yes to a baby weh him know seh me nuh want. what the fuck does he mean that he thought it would change? i made it clear as day i was never going to have any and i didnt care how much money he had and splurged i wasnt going to pop out a baby for him.

"please open the car and let me out now before me fuck yuh up" i warned him. his eyes flooded with tears. i hate seeing him cry it annoyed me so much.

"NO, me deserve an explanation me is a person me have feelings and you always deal with me like seh me nuh have feelings and me tired of it....

"OK!!!!!!!!

"WHY YOU DONT JUST LEAVE ME AND FIND A GIRL WHO CARE BOUT YOUR FEELINGS AND WILLING TO GIVE YOU A BABY? i shouted at him. his eyes widened and he cried even harder holding my hand. im soooo annoyed by this boy oh my gosh i just wanted to go inside the house and see my grandma why was he keeping me hostage in his car to talk about babies? to cry to me about something i didnt want from the begining of my time.

"really vanessa? really leave you fi another girl??? me cya believe you woulda say that to me ano like me a ask you fi the world you claim you love me everyday all me ask for is one!!! one child-

"please open the car door" i told him.

"no!" he told.

"justin me ago count to ten you see if you dont let me out of this car right now!!!" i thretened.

"NO! why you dont want a bab-

"YOU CYA TELL ME WAH FI DO WITH MY BODY YUH HEAR ME????? YOU....YOU BEEN A GIVE ME MONEY AND ALL THIS SHIT BECAUSE YOU WANT TO BUY A BABY OUTTA ME WHEN I TOLD YOU NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO LONG AGO?

"YOU ALWAYS A TRY MAKE ME SEEM LIKE THE BAD GUY WHAT ABOUT MY FEELINGS? WHAT ABOUT WHAT ME WANT?

"LET ME OUUTA YUH CAR" i shouted at him. he sobbed into his hands like a baby before unlocking the door. i stepped out of the car with the bags of food he got me and slammed it shut walking up into the yard. the anger steaming off of me was so hard to contain, as i could hear my older brother and his friends outside on the front varanda talking. i felt so bad i could hear justin calling my name and crying behind me.