MADGYAL

Chapter 23: "What are we".

Vanessa

I was on the last braid for francis. her little cousin crissy snorning behind us on her bed as we watched the tv from outside her balcony. from where i stood i could see me and millis room. apart of me wondered if he was over there and i knew most likely hes not. I didnt know what was wrong with me but it felt like no matter what i did i couldnt stop thinking about him. ive liked guys before but not as much as i liked him. and the guys i liked always treated me better than him, so i found it weird how fixated i was on him. never the less i was angry.

while on the last braid i watched as francis typed away arguing with her boyfriend. she sent him a paragraph and that man sent back what you mean? YUH SEE MAN???? YUH SEE MAN???? wickedness. i shook my head for her but i didnt dip into her buisness. i was tired and ready to go home and sleep. when her hair was done i knew i now had to curl them but i was so tired. this was all her natrual hair too way down her back. my fingers felt numb. i put her bonnet over her head deciding that in the morning id come back to curl it and style her edges later.

"alright goodnight okay? gwaan a yuh bed and ignore him nuh make him get to you" i told her hugging her. she thanked me and stood up in her small pejamas walking over to her bed and turning off the lights. i took up my drink i came over with and my red and black gucci bag and put on my slippers walking downstairs. as i walked down the stairs i saw a text come into my phone saying "hey" before i could even ask who it was the person said "Leroy". The biggest smile grew over my face immediatly. as i walked through the living room going outside i closed the grill and headed over to the house.

i was typing away with leroy asking me how is my night going and making small conversation basic talking, but i was smiling so much that the back of my head started feeling like its about to peal off. when i got to the house i unlocked the door i sighted not wasting no time to pull my bra off of me to let my brest be free me hate brazzier yuh fuck. as i turned on the lights and turn around I almost passed away seeing millie sitting in my chair by the bedroom door looking at me. i was by the bathroom door holding my heart that was beating out of my chest.

"ELLO!!! SUPPOSE ME DID HAVE HEART PROBLEM? i asked him curiously. i was not laughing he stood up laughing as he walked over to me. he cornered me as he reached down picking me up easily into his arms kissing my cheek. i pushed him away upset as i tried my best to get out of his hold. but he smelled so good and looked so good i was so fucking weak and ive never been a WEAK GYAL FI NO OTHER BWOI. he held his grip around me as he licked his pink lips trying to talk to me.

"listen vanessa, listen-

"ME NAHH LISTEN TO NOTHING MILLIE!!!! YOU THINK ME FUCKING WEAK A IDIOT YOU TAKE ME FA??????????? YOU DISSAPEAR FI FUCKING DAYS AND COME BACK AND EXPECT FI CAN KISS UP PAN ME? YOU IGNORE EVERY CALL EVERY TEXT YOU COULDNT EVEN HAVE THE DECENCY FI SAY HI!!!!"

"LEGGO ME PUT ME DOWNNNNN!!!

"look here stop gwaan suh! lower yuh voice!' he told me sternly. i was still screaming.

"ME SEH LOWER YUH VOICE VANESSA!" he shouted at me.

i didnt know what happened to me but i started crying. i stared at him and i just started crying. i was boiling inside my fist folded and i wanted to fight him. instead he pulled me into him by my waist telling me to bill.

"me been gone because me did a work vanessa, a work me guh work. me been buisy. me did affi guh all the way a manchester guh paint up some house and all kinds fi couple day-

"okay but you couldve atleast tell me!, you couldve called 1 time millie it nuh take nothing to make a call!" i said furitously as i snobbed. i hated how calm he was. as if he wasnt fased as if i didnt mean shit to him. he was very non chalant and i hate that shit. he kissed me into my neck as he told me to calm down telling me hes sorry. i didnt know when it happen but in a blink of an eye i was naked and in the bed moaning his name
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for the rest of the night we laid in bed naked as i traced the tattoos on his chest and he tucked his face into my neck. I was far from mad now. It was as if I was a blazing fire and he was the rain outing my flame. I went from angry to Lala land. As I traced his chest my heart raced with something I couldn't explain. I couldn't explain it. It was this deep deep liking this bond past just the sex passed everything. It was this care that I had pouring out of my body that only him as a man could get out of me.

But at the same time I felt so confused. I knew I liked him more than just what we are. Sometimes he have me the impression that one day we're going to get a little further into what ever we had then other days it's as if he doesn't even know who I am. It crushes me so bad and I never wanted to admit to anyone that I fucked with me.

I parted my lips to speak. I put my pride aside and I felt the emotions immersing out of me. And every ounce of shame I didn't care about. I was compelled to tell him how I felt.

"Millie? I asked softly.

"Vanessa? He muttered. I turned to look down at him. His pretty long dark eyelashes around his almond eyes fluttered my and stomach twisted with butterflies at what I was going to say.

"I-I" I stuttered. He slightly frowed sitting back.

"We been trying to get to know each other for a while now. And I can say I know you fairly well.... We didn't start out on good terms but now I like you and you like me? I asked curiously as I laughed nervously.

"Yeah, of course me like yuh" he told me smiling.

"So then... W-why haven't you asked me to be your girl? I asked him curiously. Just when I said that my voice cracked more and tears begin to feel like black peppers were in my eyes.

"Vanessa" he muttered.

"What wrong with me? Is it because me work here? Me is a maid me not pretty to you? You embarrassed of me what about me make me only sex to you? I broke down into more tears as I wiped my eyes and my lips quivered.

"Come here" he said pulling me into a hug. I cried into his shoulder as he rubbed my back.

"Vanessa me like you a lot. Me really do you beautiful. You know you beautiful as fuck. But me just not ready for a relationship right now. Right now me just a try focus pan mi self and work out my internal problems Dem because me promise you seh me have Dem. but me like you so much me like you a lot me just wah be casual with you Vanessa me like weh we deh right now"

"Me never mean fi confuse you and make you question your self" he told me. I cried even more. I was so venerable. After talking I told him i understand and though I wasn't happy about his answers I respected it.

I decided we didn't have to have a official relationship or anything this was perfectly fine. I leaned up kissing his lip.

After he fell asleep I had to text back mi next man Leroy.